No regret, but love

Thursday, May 5, 2011

I need you for who you are,
even though the sun don't be shining
I remember you were by my side,
I want you for who you are,
Because when I'm with you, I can be myself.
Since you've been gone. Life still goes on.
But everyday feels like I'm breathing
but no longer living.

I can never take back that one essential moment in my life.
Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice,
but falling in love with you I had no control over.
and yes, I feel like I've caused a betrayal
to the most important person who's
touched my heart, but as time goes on,
I realize that it was just a mistake. An error in judgment.
One of many that I'll make on the rest of my journey.

I'm learning to forgive myself for that,
and move on with the rest of my life.
Sure, I wish I had a giant eraser
to get rid of it, but I can't. I have to take what I can
from that, and grow from it
That mistake doesn't define who I'm , it distinguishes me
from the rest, and helps me grow.

I remember that night, you speak when you are angry.
You shouted, screamed at me. It broke my heart,
into even smaller pieces. Yes, I know its my fault to begin with.
You want me out of your life, you don't want to have
anything to do with me. You want to be
happy again; you say. I can't help but to start crying.

And then you say, you started to have regret knowing me.
I once brought you up and now, I'm the one who bringing you down.
At that moment It feels like every other part of my body is broken too.
But H, I will never regret or say that I wish I'd never met you.
Because once upon a time, you were exactly what I needed.
And even up to now, if you wonder; I still love you as much.

I wish I could say I never loved you. But then
my tears would just yell at me for lying.
The fact is H, I never love you any less and I still need you in my life.
But for now, I have to learn living my life without you
hoping that one day, our path will cross again.