Heartache, breathless, torn between love and let go.

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

He’s on his way to nowhere. ‘Cause he heard it was safe there
I wish, I can just look away. Take all these cuts, and make them shine and all this pain I’ve held inside. So I can find my way home again. I don’t want to be perfect, just alright...

Once upon a time, something happened to me, that was the sweetest thing that ever could be, It was a fantasy, A dream come true, It was the day I met you.

The things most people don't know about me were the things I guess you always understood.

You'll always be able to make me smile... No matter how long its been.

In life, we do things... Some, we wish we had never done & some we wish we could replay a million times. But, they all make us who we are & in the end, they shape & detail us. If we were to reverse them, we wouldn't be the same person we are today. So just live. Make mistakes. & have wonderful memories. But, never second guess who you are, where you've been, & most importantly where you're going.

You're all I hoped I'd find in every single way, but everything I could give right now is everything you couldn't take.

Come on now... You know you've always been my favorite, the one that I always love the most.

We all go through life like bulls in a china shop... A chip here... A crack there... Doing damage to ourselves...to other people... The problem is trying to figure out how to control the damage we've done or that's been done to us. Sometimes, the damage catches us by surprise. Sometimes, we think we can fix the damage. & Sometimes, the damage is something we can't even see.

"You are the best thing ever happened to me!" ...I think that was your best line ever.

People say everything happens for a reason. Things fall apart & others fall into place. Don't question it. Just let it happen.

There's that occasional night where I just break down & cry 'cause I know no matter what... Things will never be the same.

It breaks my heart; it makes me sad to think of all the times we had.You made me laugh and you made me cry. And all that I can do is sigh,and wonder why.

I wish I could walk away and forget what we have,but I can't,because I know you won't come after me,and I guess that's what hurts the most.

They say, sometimes you have to let them be free...and leting go is not easy as loving you, where it comes naturally.

and there is no remedy for love but to love more.

So.. i'll just try and let go and wait, and maybe in that time I will start to move on.. but that's gotta happen on its own.. i mean, as much as I'd like to.. i cant just make my heart stop feeling things that it wants to feel.

But I don't want anyone else to get the chance to realize how amazing you are. Even if a day should go by when I don't say "I Love You", may there never be a moment gone by without you knowing that I do.

"The most important thing is to enjoy life; to be happy... That's all that matters." --Audrey Hepburn.

One true love

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.

There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face.

In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon.

You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

--------- Bob Marley