Gila!

I couldn't find the right words to say,
how much I miss you, how much I need you, how much I love you.
Losing you, has been one of the most difficult things that I need to deal with.

Yes, I've hurt your feelings. Yes, I've broke your heart.
And I'm sorry, I mean it when I say; sorry.
No one is perfect, I know what my mistake is
and I'm learning to be a better person because of you
and you, change me for a better. You, brings light into my life.
And I never love you any less, indeed I love you more and more each day.
He say, she say, they can say whatever they want,
but the truth is, I'm the one who's dealing with this.

I wish I can turn back time, I wish I can be with you again,
work things out and we can be happy again.
I, should be blame for all this,
I'm the one who ruins our relationship.
And I, couldn't help but to hate myself for what had happened.
I wish you could see, I wish you know how much I've change,
for a better. I've learn my lesson and I'm not doing it again.

As I'm writing this, tears running down my cheek,
I wish you know H, how much i miss you.
How much I cried every night to sleep.

I woke up every middle of the night since then,
losing myself in the dark. Looking for the light,
wishing that we are still together. But its too late.
I have to pay for the damage that I've caused
and my heart is broken into pieces.
Deep down, I'm still wishing, and hoping that
somehow, someday, we can be together again.

H, if you ever wonder,
You are still, the first person who entered my mind every morning
and yet the last person who leave my mind every night.
You, complete me like no one ever does.
I, can see myself in you.

H, don't ever doubt yourself.
You're one hell great of a person,
you're amazing just the way you are.
Your life stories moved me, touched my heart.
I never met an individual as strong as you are.
You have a lot of potential in you,
you can be someone successful in the near future.
And I'll pray for your success, as always.


H, I'm sorry for hurting you, for ruining your night and day
for causing a lot of misery, in your life.
All I have for you, is my love.
It's breaking my heart when I have this feeling
and I can't get it to you. It's breaking my heart
when all I desire is to hug you and hold you tight in my arms
and I can only keep it to myself.

I'm scared H, to lose you entirely.
I need you in my life.
I have so much to say and all I can hope for,
this is not the end for us.