I want to tell you how much I love you

I don't want to feel afraid anymore.
I want to tell you how much I love you. In a way it doesn't seem too big to handle, in a way it doesn't seem too small to be cast aside, in a way it doesn't seem like a total joke, in a way it doesn't seem like it's just another bundle of words together.

But I don't know how to. How to tell you I love you in the way I would want it to come out. It's hard to tell you how I really feel about you when I'm too afraid of losing you, what I already have now.

Sometimes I feel "I love you" is too short a phrase for all that to be evident.

I love you! Why should I wait until the end to tell you? I love you. I love you. I love you. That's what I wanted to tell you. Because, I don't wanna lose you all over again.

Never thought I would be in this position. Remembering every touch, every single word. How my heart always raised when I looked into your eyes. Our sharing of stories and serious talk. Laughter. Kisses. Hugs. Your hands around my body when sleeping. Your smell.

H, I know I've let you down, I've brokened your heart into million pieces, I maybe the worst thing ever happened to you. Deep down, I can never blame anyone else but me. I wish I can mend your broken heart and be with you again, start fresh.

Yours always,
si itik gila oink oink, eh! ;')

Gila, no one esle.

It's the way you got me, head over heels for you... The way you get me, like nothing or no one else ever has. There are just those times when you give me that look & no one else may see it, but when you look at me that way, my heart just melts & I know you're the one.

We all know, everyone is looking for a something. One thing that makes it all complete. Well, for me, it's waking up beside you to watch the sun rise on your face... to know that I can say I love you at any given time or place.

You know you mean the WORLD to me.

I can only give you everything I've got. I can only be as sorry as you think I should be. And, I still love you more than anyone else will.

it's you, Gila. (and no one else).