Everytime

I may have made it rain,
please forgive me,
My weakness caused you pain,
and this song's my sorry.

Begging for Forgiveness

Once upon a time. we used to have fun...
Once upon a time, something happened to me,
it was the sweetest thing that ever could be, it was a fantasy,
a dream come true, it was the day that I met you.
Once upon a time, we were there for each other.
And, yes, there's been a lot of bad stuff in between.
But none of that matters right now, to me.
You need me, I'm there. Any time, any place, anywhere.
Because I know, I need you in my life.
But now it feels like war.


H, I can’t talk to you anymore; it’s not that I am mad at you,
I don't have the right anymore.
When I talk to you I realize how much I love you
and when I realize how much I love you,
I realize I can’t have you and that makes me love you even more.
And that makes me sad.
You know I spend every day thinking about you and dreaming about you,
and every time you walked by i lost myself,
do you know what that feels like?

H, a lot of people walk in and out of my life,
but your one of the only people i
ever really wanted to stick around. I talked to myself:
People change, Syafiq. Yes, they do.
People die, and they move away... and they grow up.
Everything changes eventually and I think sometimes you
have to lose someone completely before
you can figure out what they really mean to you.

H, I miss you when something really good happens,
because you're the one I want to share it with.
I miss you when something is troubling me,
because you're the one who understands me so well.
I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know
that you are the one that makes my laughter grow,
and my tears disappear.


I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most
when I lay awake at night, and think of all the wonderful
times that we spent with each other for those were some of the
best and most memorable times of my life.

H, I fill my days with memories of you.
I remember how you used to look at me,
as if I was your most valuable treasure.
Has you found a new treasure? I can't help but wonder
if we will be able to find our way back to each other.
The road seems so very long, and my head is crowded
with such a dark thought. I feel our bond grows
weaker by the day and I'm powerless to stop it.

I know that things between us are pretty much
beyond repair right now. And I wouldn't ever presume
to try and make everything better with a conversation,
so that's not what this is -- but I just wanted to tell you,
I wanted to say ... I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the pain it caused you.
But mostly I'm sorry for my part in it.
But mostly I'm sorry because I miss our relationship.
And however far off it may be, I look forward
to the day that we can be together again. Tho, as a friend.
The fact is, no matter what goes on this year,
when you come back to me again, you know I'll be here.

Yes, people change

People might change but there are
two things that you can't change about them.
Their name and the memories you've had with them.
That's the reason why I still love you as much.

H, you're fine exactly as you are,
Your imperfections and flaws make you an unique individual.
After all, nobody's perfect and people do make mistake.
and I learn to live with it and to love you,
for who you are and I never hate you nor have the heart
to forget everything about you.
I can't get rid if this feeling I have for you
and I won't get rid of it.
I treasure what we have so much more than
anything else.

Wina:

"I don't understand how people can
erase you from their lives, just because
it's easier than working things out.
And if someone really love you,
they wouldn't let you slip away,
no matter how hard the situation is."

But H, they can say whatever they want
I never questioned your love for me.
It's tearing me up inside knowing that
we can't be together for the mistake I've done.
Something that I have to pay for.
Nevertheless, I'm still have hope and believe in us ;')

Don't You Remember

When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any sins,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye,
And a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,

But I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye,

And a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
In hope that you'd find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,

Why don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?

:')

Skittles

Today, I cried again.

Why?



This is the reason why.
One of my colleague, was eating the green packet skittles
while i pass by her table.
And I can't help but my tears come running down my cheek.

It reminds me of all the good memories we had,
watching movies while eating this skittles.
I miss you, I miss us :')

Gila!

I couldn't find the right words to say,
how much I miss you, how much I need you, how much I love you.
Losing you, has been one of the most difficult things that I need to deal with.

Yes, I've hurt your feelings. Yes, I've broke your heart.
And I'm sorry, I mean it when I say; sorry.
No one is perfect, I know what my mistake is
and I'm learning to be a better person because of you
and you, change me for a better. You, brings light into my life.
And I never love you any less, indeed I love you more and more each day.
He say, she say, they can say whatever they want,
but the truth is, I'm the one who's dealing with this.

I wish I can turn back time, I wish I can be with you again,
work things out and we can be happy again.
I, should be blame for all this,
I'm the one who ruins our relationship.
And I, couldn't help but to hate myself for what had happened.
I wish you could see, I wish you know how much I've change,
for a better. I've learn my lesson and I'm not doing it again.

As I'm writing this, tears running down my cheek,
I wish you know H, how much i miss you.
How much I cried every night to sleep.

I woke up every middle of the night since then,
losing myself in the dark. Looking for the light,
wishing that we are still together. But its too late.
I have to pay for the damage that I've caused
and my heart is broken into pieces.
Deep down, I'm still wishing, and hoping that
somehow, someday, we can be together again.

H, if you ever wonder,
You are still, the first person who entered my mind every morning
and yet the last person who leave my mind every night.
You, complete me like no one ever does.
I, can see myself in you.

H, don't ever doubt yourself.
You're one hell great of a person,
you're amazing just the way you are.
Your life stories moved me, touched my heart.
I never met an individual as strong as you are.
You have a lot of potential in you,
you can be someone successful in the near future.
And I'll pray for your success, as always.


H, I'm sorry for hurting you, for ruining your night and day
for causing a lot of misery, in your life.
All I have for you, is my love.
It's breaking my heart when I have this feeling
and I can't get it to you. It's breaking my heart
when all I desire is to hug you and hold you tight in my arms
and I can only keep it to myself.

I'm scared H, to lose you entirely.
I need you in my life.
I have so much to say and all I can hope for,
this is not the end for us.

Lumrah Manusia vs Lumrah Alam

Well i think this is my first ever entry
written in malay!seriously?lol
but its not my own words though,
i found this very interesting and heart catching
entry on the web, would love to share it with you guys!
so here you go:



Jika kamu memancing ikan....
Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail,
hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu....
Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN ia
semula ke dalam air begitu saja....
Kerana ia akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu
dan mungkin ia akan MENDERITA selagi ia masih hidup.


Begitulah juga ........

Setelah kamu memberi banyak PENGHARAPAN kepada seseorang...
Setelah ia mulai MENYAYANGIMU hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya....
Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja....
Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu
dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN
segalanya selagi dia mengingatmu. ...

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada,
jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya
dan janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh....
cukuplah sekadar KEPERLUANmu. ..
Apabila sekali ia retak.... tentu sukar untuk kamu
menampalnya semula.... Akhirnya ia dibuang....
Sedangkan jika kamu cuba memperbaikinya
mungkin ia masih dapat dipergunakan lagi....

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang,
TERIMALAH seadanya....
Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan
janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu ISTIMEWA....
Anggaplah dia manusia biasa. Apabila sekali dia melakukan
KESILAPAN bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya. ...
akhirnya kamu KECEWA dan meninggalkannya.
Sedangkan jika kamu MEMAAFKANNYA boleh jadi hubungan
kamu akan TERUS hingga ke akhirnya....

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi...
yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu.
Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat.
Mengapa kamu berlengah,
cuba mencari makanan yang lain..
Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan.
Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya. Kamu akan MENYESAL.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan.....
yang pasti membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu.
MENYAYANGIMU... MENGASIHIMU...
Mengapa kamu berlengah,
cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain.
Terlalu mengejar KESEMPURNAAN.
Kelak, kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain..
Kamu juga yang akan MENYESAL....

Susan Boyle: Cover Album, Revealed

Susan Boyle's new album cover features
the global superstar as you have seen her
before--down-to-earth and natural.
Boyle's handlers are making sure that the
"Hairy Angel's" appeal is not diluted by Hollywood gloss.
On the cover of the 48-year-old's debut album
I Dreamed A Dream, she appears in all her wrinkled glory.

I Dreamed A Dream tracklisting:

"Wild Horses"
"I Dreamed A Dream"
"Cry Me A River"
"How Great Thou Art"
"You'll See"
"Daydream Believer"
"Up To The Mountain"
"Amazing Grace"
"Who I Was Born To Be"
"Proud"
"The End Of The World"
"Silent"

Done

hey!omg, im so excited.im back now.
after 4 months of practical training,
im successfully done with it!
i cant believe that i manage to pull things off
at the work place and i have no idea that its
gonna be this emotional to leave "them"

its over now and im ready for more action!
i believe that im a better person now and
i've learn so much valuable things!
to all Parkroyal Kuala Lumpur associates,
thank you so much!

p/s: im having semester break now, up until 25th October!

It's been forever!

i know right! and im sorry,
i've been busy, real busy!

this is how my life looks like now:
i have to go to work everyday including saturday,
from 9am to 5pm. so basically i go to bed around
11pm every night and wake up at around 630am
every morning! i need to leave house around 715am
to make sure that im able to reached work place before time.
and i reached home around 615pm after work!

pretty lame isn't it?yes it is and i miss my social life
just like that!i can't wait to go back to uni life!

i'll be back guys, soon!very soon!

I'm Busy

Life get the best of me,
im busy with so much stuffs.
i have so much to share but i don't have the time!
be back really soon!

Get in contact with me via Facebook instead.
do add me at syarefiqe_cute@yahoo.com
hugs.

Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis

English longest word!pheewww.
I can't even pronounce it well,
and I thought Mary Poppins’
Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious is the longest!

Wikipedia

Births and Deaths in real time

This is interesting: http://www.breathingearth.net

Really shows how small our day to day problems are.

Pay attention to the numbers at the bottom right
increasing and decreasing.

whatever!

what is the world most annoying word?
personally, i hate the word whatever!
it should never be invented in the first place!
for me its carry the same meaning as
"who cares" and "like i care" ?

or sometimes perhaps when people lost words
or have no idea how to express their feelings
they will say that word too, which is annoying to me!

another reason on why people used that word is
when they're losing an argument and the next thing to say
is whatever, shhhh i could strangle!

what do u guys think?

Kapten Boleh @ Chnl 611

Yeay, hari ahad ni which is esok

tengok la aku in action @ channel 611
cerita kapten boleh.tak sure episode berapa.

Shooting cerita ni dah lama ok!time tu rambut panjang,
rambut betul yea!bukan rambut palsu(Ramai orang tanya)!
haha.so jgn lupa esok 10am!

Oh lagi satu, Manjalara.episode bila tak sure.
tp next week rasanya!kalau tak silap la!





p/s: thanks Syia/Julie teman shooting that time!

Donna @ MSU

So i've been telling a friend of mine, Donna

that i've seen his adv on monorail train.
he's been dying to see that adv since he
never got the chance to catch the train!

well im using monorail everyday to get to work place,
and i manage to snap couple of photos that consist
of him on MSU advertisement, now you're happy huh!
im a crappy photographer, orang ramai la weh, tebal muka,
even though its not that good, but you manage to see it now.
thanks to me!









p/s: so you figured, Donna is the guy with the white
shirt on the MSU adv. Donna is his real name yeah,
Donna Muslim Nuzmul Komar.

I oficially. . .

survive the first month of internship!yeay!

so far so good!i do enjoy it!so far. . .
but its kinda boring sometimes, perhaps because
i have a high expectation before its even started.
and there's nothing close to my expectation thus far.
im hoping for more!

its only the first month but i got the chance to talk and
present my project (handling corporate gift project)
in front of the board meeting!can you imagine?
all the big boss are there. GM and division Managers!
but yeah, i want more!been doing a lot of paper work so far.

Malaysia Mega Sales

4th July - 31st August!

so as usual, Mega sales is back.
Started last saturday and gonna end on August.
so aku pun keluar la last saturday after work around 2pm,
met with nina and then around 4 with my other besties!

we went to Pavillion, just to window shopping!
what to do, takda duit nak beli.tgk je la!mcm nak gila ok.
sales sana sini, semua nak beli. tapi satu apa pun tak mampu!
haih!menganga je la then.none of us did purchase anything!
the girls sempat la jugak try sana sini, baju, kasut and all!
tapi yeah, we never did purchase anything!berangan je.



so after all, we decided to watch movie! and we manage to catch
8pm movie, which is Last House on the Left!i wanted to watch
Ice Age 3, but majority rules! what i have in my mind
before the movie startedis that, its gonna be lame boring movie!
bunch of teenagers get lost in jungle and one by one get murdered and all!
but i was wrong!that movie was great!i enjoyed it so much!
i suggest you too go and watch it!thriller gila weh!


orang ramai, launching mega sale!





While the mums sibuk rebut kasut, kesian budak2
ni terbiar!hahaha.




mampu cuba dan lihat je la!haih=/



Meet.... Shaker!

p/s: btw terserempak dgn Shaker!omg i get a very
tight warm hug!ye la lama gila tak jumpa!
rindu bangat! go to see you buddy!

English is difficult language . . . for some . . .

Yeah i do get confused sometimes!

susah jgk la guna english ni.tak tau bila nak letak "ed"
or bila nak letak "ing", bila nak pakai "ate" or "eat" and so on.
memang mengelirukan!tp takda la se-confused Japanese people!

This is a true story from the Japanese Embassy in US!!!



Back then, Prime Minister Mori was given some
Basic English conversation training before he visits
Washington and meets President Barack Obama...

The instructor told Mori Prime Minister,
when you shake hand with President Obama, please say 'how r u'.

Then Mr. Obama should say, 'I am fine, and you?'
Now, you should say 'me too'. Afterwards we,
translators, will do the work for you.'

It looks quite simple, but the truth is...

When Mori met Obama , he mistakenly said
'who r u?' (Instead of 'How r u?'.)

Mr. Obama was a bit shocked but
still managed to react with humor:
'Well, I'm Michelle's husband, ha-ha..'

Then Mori replied 'me too, ha-ha.. .'.

Then there was a long silence in the meeting room.
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What the duck?i dont know how true this is!
but still, its funny!

Movie Check List

so after long awaited, akhirnya dapat jugak tgk

Transformers Revenge of the fallen!
tu pun nasib, serious lucky gila.tak sangka.
last Saturday went to Pavillion cuba nasib nak tgk that movie,
but sampai dkt counter its happened that the ticket sold out.
not only for that movie, but for all the others as well!what the duck?

then walked to Times Square with no hope of watching that movie pun,
queued sampai dkt counter saja je tanya ada ticket tak,
sekali dia ckp "lucky you, ada 2 canceled reservation", apa lagi!menjerit
la kat situ.tiba2 tak sangka, happy gila!

so the movie was great!really enjoyed watching it.its like for real!
tak nak cerita banyak.nanti spoiled pulak for those who,
ketinggalan,oppppss!yg tak tgk lagi.lol!cant wait for the sequel.

so as for July,
im waiting to watch these movie's below,
so anyone wanna movie date me? haha.
excited ni!


1. Ice Age - Dawn of Dinosaurs (1st July)



2. Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince (16 July)


3. Skrip 7707 (16 July)


4. The Proposal (30 July)