quack! quack! - confession of a duck addict

I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out.

2011-12-27T19:53:00.000-08:00

Words are cheap, and love, it speaks the volumes that we need to make our hearts grow weak. So come on back, and have some laughs. Remember that the good times, they ain't so bad. Cause I am dying to try and find a way we can leave this all behind.

Gila, you're the air I would kill to breathe. Holds my love in your hands, still I'm searching for something. Out of breath, I am left, hoping someday I'll breathe again. It hurts to be here. I only wanted love from you. It hurts to be here. What am I gonna do?

It's too late, it’s too late to fix this. What’s the point? This is all so pointless. Sorry I tried so hard. And just, next time that I see you, just remind me not to act just like I care. All those memories you killed, and you’re just burning bridges you helped build. And everything that I say, I hope it brings you back to that one day. While all I have left to do is to just keep reminding myself to forget about you.

And I felt I was on fire with the things I could have told you. I guess I just assumed that you eventually would ask. And I wouldn't have to bring up my so badly broken heart. And all those months I just wanted to sleep.
And it's you who I long for when I cannot sleep.

Maybe to you, I'm just a mistake. Maybe you don't love me anymore and you will never will love me the way you used to. But H, you're once mine and you're the best thing that ever happened to me, still. I love you with all my heart, always will. And I’m yours if you want, and I can be yours to spend your life with. I can be yours, we’ll hide indoors, petrified of the world. And if you’d rather stay in at night, I can relate to that. And if it feels like your heart’s dried up, I can relate to that. And if you need someone at your side, I am out there.

With YOU

2011-11-08T23:30:00.000-08:00

There was hope, there was faith
There was truth but I just couldn't get it
Now there's love in my life can't let it go I just won't let it
Change has played its part
And it's healed my wounded heart

All I wanna do and all I wanna be
All I wanna feel is somethin real
I want to believe that everything I do, from here on out will be with you
It's gonna be with you

Here with you I feel safe and I know this is jut the beginning
For so long I was lost, now it feels I'm finally winning
I wouldn't mind,
I could love you for the rest of my life

Oh, it's gonna be with you
I wouldn't mind,
I could love you for the rest of my life
Cause

It's gonna be with you
Now that I found you
I'm never gonna let you go
I'm never gonna let you go away

- Jonah Johnson

Love Letter.

2011-11-08T23:16:00.000-08:00

“People change. Feelings change. It doesn’t mean that the love once shared wasn’t true or real. It simply means that sometimes, when people grow, they grow apart.”

Right now, you are going away, further away from me.
And all i wanna do is be right there with you,
encouraging you every step of the way and
letting you know what really is inside my heart.
Right now, I am home alone, frustrated because I can't do anything about it.

I know, I don’t perse love you in a total romantic way,
You always said that it seems like I don't care.
The truth is, I care deeply about you and I love you...
I wish that you felt the same way too.
but I know you don't. This is what I have to pay, for breaking your heart.
Until that day come where you can trust me again, I will suffer willingly and whole heartedly. just for you.

And I hate to see you this way, I hate the fact that I can't do anything about it.
If anything, please please please don't forget me.
Don't you remember, the first time we met?
its keep repeating in my head, I always love you for who you are.

I do love you. Don't you see? Don't you understand?
You're the love of my life. I can't leave you.
But right now, you're leaving me. And I can only watch you, go away.
I will always love you, tho from far.

Right now, I just want to take you wherever I go,
help you forget tomorrow, love you my best
and I know all of the rest will follow.

I want to tell you how much I love you

2011-10-17T20:16:00.000-07:00

I don't want to feel afraid anymore.
I want to tell you how much I love you. In a way it doesn't seem too big to handle, in a way it doesn't seem too small to be cast aside, in a way it doesn't seem like a total joke, in a way it doesn't seem like it's just another bundle of words together.

But I don't know how to. How to tell you I love you in the way I would want it to come out. It's hard to tell you how I really feel about you when I'm too afraid of losing you, what I already have now.

Sometimes I feel "I love you" is too short a phrase for all that to be evident.

I love you! Why should I wait until the end to tell you? I love you. I love you. I love you. That's what I wanted to tell you. Because, I don't wanna lose you all over again.

Never thought I would be in this position. Remembering every touch, every single word. How my heart always raised when I looked into your eyes. Our sharing of stories and serious talk. Laughter. Kisses. Hugs. Your hands around my body when sleeping. Your smell.

H, I know I've let you down, I've brokened your heart into million pieces, I maybe the worst thing ever happened to you. Deep down, I can never blame anyone else but me. I wish I can mend your broken heart and be with you again, start fresh.

Yours always,
si itik gila oink oink, eh! ;')

Gila, no one esle.

2011-10-09T22:23:00.000-07:00

It's the way you got me, head over heels for you... The way you get me, like nothing or no one else ever has. There are just those times when you give me that look & no one else may see it, but when you look at me that way, my heart just melts & I know you're the one.

We all know, everyone is looking for a something. One thing that makes it all complete. Well, for me, it's waking up beside you to watch the sun rise on your face... to know that I can say I love you at any given time or place.

You know you mean the WORLD to me.

I can only give you everything I've got. I can only be as sorry as you think I should be. And, I still love you more than anyone else will.

it's you, Gila. (and no one else).

Heartache, breathless, torn between love and let go.

2011-09-27T19:55:00.000-07:00

He’s on his way to nowhere. ‘Cause he heard it was safe there

I wish, I can just look away. Take all these cuts, and make them shine and all this pain I’ve held inside. So I can find my way home again. I don’t want to be perfect, just alright...

Once upon a time, something happened to me, that was the sweetest thing that ever could be, It was a fantasy, A dream come true, It was the day I met you.

The things most people don't know about me were the things I guess you always understood.

You'll always be able to make me smile... No matter how long its been.

In life, we do things... Some, we wish we had never done & some we wish we could replay a million times. But, they all make us who we are & in the end, they shape & detail us. If we were to reverse them, we wouldn't be the same person we are today. So just live. Make mistakes. & have wonderful memories. But, never second guess who you are, where you've been, & most importantly where you're going.

You're all I hoped I'd find in every single way, but everything I could give right now is everything you couldn't take.

Come on now... You know you've always been my favorite, the one that I always love the most.

We all go through life like bulls in a china shop... A chip here... A crack there... Doing damage to ourselves...to other people... The problem is trying to figure out how to control the damage we've done or that's been done to us. Sometimes, the damage catches us by surprise. Sometimes, we think we can fix the damage. & Sometimes, the damage is something we can't even see.

"You are the best thing ever happened to me!" ...I think that was your best line ever.

People say everything happens for a reason. Things fall apart & others fall into place. Don't question it. Just let it happen.

There's that occasional night where I just break down & cry 'cause I know no matter what... Things will never be the same.

It breaks my heart; it makes me sad to think of all the times we had.You made me laugh and you made me cry. And all that I can do is sigh,and wonder why.

I wish I could walk away and forget what we have,but I can't,because I know you won't come after me,and I guess that's what hurts the most.

They say, sometimes you have to let them be free...and leting go is not easy as loving you, where it comes naturally.

and there is no remedy for love but to love more.

So.. i'll just try and let go and wait, and maybe in that time I will start to move on.. but that's gotta happen on its own.. i mean, as much as I'd like to.. i cant just make my heart stop feeling things that it wants to feel.

But I don't want anyone else to get the chance to realize how amazing you are. Even if a day should go by when I don't say "I Love You", may there never be a moment gone by without you knowing that I do.

"The most important thing is to enjoy life; to be happy... That's all that matters." --Audrey Hepburn.

One true love

2011-09-11T20:44:00.000-07:00

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.

There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face.

In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon.

You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

--------- Bob Marley

Secuit sedih hati

2011-08-21T22:39:00.000-07:00

Tahukah dirimu aku masih mencinta?
tahukah dirimu setiap saat aku merindu,
setia mengharap belai kasihmu.

Bukan aku tak pernah mengerti dirmu,
ku sanjung setiap kata cinta kau berikan aku.
Hati ku jujur, niat ku telus.
Namun aku manusia lemah, serba kekurangan.

Aku sedar kesilapan ku, aku sedar kilaf diriku.
Terasa seperti baru kemarin kau singgah lalu kau curi hatiku,
sejak hari itu kau rajaku dan aku budakmu,
siang malam kau ukir cinta, lagi dan lagi begitu nyata.
Kita punya dunia sendiri, tak ada siapa yang mengerti.

Dan bila kau pergi, aku hilang dari kewujudan.
Kini aku terbelenggu sepi dalam ruang hampa hati
Teriakkan Aku, teriak sampai semua tertidur.
Ya aku tahu, ini semua silap aku.

Tak mampu ku menatap, tak mampu ku berucap, tak mampu ku bersikap,
Hanya hati yang dapat menangkap dan merasakan,
Ruangan ini hampa dan sunyi
Tak ada keindahan lagi setelah kau pergi.

Jika diberi peluang sekali lagi, kan ku bukti betapa hati
ini tertulis hanya nama mu. Aku mengharap, kau mengerti.
Pakafuii;')

Menjaga Hati

2011-08-09T19:38:00.000-07:00

Masih tertinggal,
bayangan mu,
yang telah membekas,
di relung hati ku.
Hujan tanpa henti,
seolah pertanda,
cinta tak disini lagi kau t’lah berpaling.

Biarkan, aku menjaga, perasaan ini oh.
Menjaga, segenap cinta, yang telah kau beri.
Engkau pergi, aku tak ‘kan pergi.
Kau menjauh aku tak ‘kan jauh.
Sebenarnya, diri ku masih,
mengharapkan mu.

Masih adakah,
cahaya rindu mu,
yang dulu selalu,
cerminkan hati mu.
Aku tak’kan bisa,
menghapus diri mu,
meski ku lihat kini kau diseberang sana.

Andai akhirnya,
kau tak juga kembali,
aku tetap sendiri,
menjaga hati.

Sejujurnya, diri ku masih,
mengharapkan mu.

Cinta = Gundah

2011-08-08T18:23:00.000-07:00

Cinta itu tidak terbit semena-mena. Cinta bukan sesuatu yang tercampak ke dalam atau tercampak keluar. Ia ada asalannya. Cinta itu terbitnya daripada hati. Dan cinta itu ialah perasaan dan rasa. Manusia tidak akan lari daripada memiliki kedua-duanya. Perasaan dan rasa.

Namun, bagaimana cinta itu? Bagaimana cinta yang benar? Begitulah hati-hati yang merindu akan tertanya-tanya, begitulah hati yang resah dan gundah akan tercari-cari. Dengan apa cinta itu bisa diasaskan? Apakah ini cinta? Bagaimana mungkin cinta itu ialah satu rasa yang sementara bahagianya?

Sedang yang kerap kali terjeluak itu ialah sengsara? Cinta di kala kejauhan membuatkan jiwa-jiwa rasa tidak tenteram, resah gelisah, inikah cinta? Apakah bukan sepatutnya cinta itu menjadi sesuatu yang menyenangkan, melapangkan, mengamankan? Cinta di kala kejauhan menguji kepercayaan sesama jiwa, apakah dia setia? Apakah dia selamat? Adakah itu adakah ini? Sehingga jiwa menjadi tidak selesa, sentiasa terfikir-fikir, sehingga kerja tidak menjadi, inikah cinta?

Aku resah, aku gelisah. Bukan kerana ketiadaan cinta, tetapi kerana masih mencintai. Ia, semuanya sudah berakhir di antara kita tetapi aku masih tetap sayang, masih tetap rindu, masih terkenangkan masa lalu. Tidak pernah hati aku sekeliru ini. Tidak pernah hati aku, merasa penuh selengkap ini sedang mencintai. Mungkin, ini yang di katakan cinta sejati?

Memang, aku banyak sesalan. Tidak ada yang lain dapat aku salahkan kecuali empunya diri sendiri atas terputusnya hubungan kita. Aku cuba untuk berdiri teguh tanpa kamu, cuba untuk bersendiri berdiam diri tanpa mengenangkan kamu. Cuba untuk membuang perasaan hati ini. Bodoh! Apa yang cuba aku lakukan? Tidak, semua itu tidak mungkin terjadi.

Sehingga kini, aku masih mencintai kamu. Aku, belajar dari kesilapan diri. Aku seorang manusia yang lebih baik dari semalam kerana kamu. Alangkah indahnya jika kita dapat bersama semula. Akan ku tatang, ku sayang, ku jaga dirimu lebih dari dulu. Aku masih mengharap, masih percaya akan cinta kita.

Hati aku sakit, melihat kamu bersama yang lain. Hati aku sedih tidak dapat bersama berkongsi rasa gembira. Hati kecil ini, meratap ronta pabila kesedihan pabila ada yang mahu diceritakan. Tetapi semuanya harus disimpan, tidak dapat diceritakan. Semuanya salah aku.

Aku masih, perlukan kamu. Ingin bersama kamu semula,
GILA....

Proud

2011-05-11T19:48:00.000-07:00

Life is exciting you step outside of your comfort zone.
All it takes is a little bit of imagination, exploring and
looking for more from what life is willing to offer you.
Living a life that is full of experiences is the way to go
- after all you only get to live once!!

Today, is the last day for me working in Jobstreet.com
And its a new beginning; adventure in life for H.
H, I wish I can tell you how proud I'm with you.
At one point, I'm very happy for you and on
the other hand, I'm upset because I wish I'm there with you.
To give you full support and to be by your side.

I wish I can tell you how happy I'm for you.
But I remember, the limitation that I've caused;
from pushing you away. It breaks my heart,
not being able to tell you how I feel, I have to
keep it all in me and just to keep it aside.
It is something that i have to pay for, my own mistake.
I wish you know, how difficult it has been since
the day you leave my life.

I wish you all the best H, and good luck with the
new path you're taking in your life. I know you
can do it, just believe in yourself. and I know
for sure that you'll do great. I have so much hope
for you in the near future. You have so much potential
to grow as a person and to be successful.
Just believe in yourself, I believe in you.
I miss you, H.

The end of a journey, the beginning of a new

2011-05-11T19:36:00.000-07:00

As some of you know, today is my last
day working at Jobstreet. com. Importantly, the decision to
leave has been entirely of my own making.
I can't tell you how difficult it is to describe
how sad I am to be leaving. When I got here months
ago (16/08/2010), I would never have realized how connected
I would be to such a warm community of people.
To all of the wonderful people whom I have had
the opportunity to work with over the past 9 months - Thank You.

During my tenure here, many times I have been
humbled by the kindness of each and every one of you.
You’ve helped me through some difficult times,
and shared the joyous times in yours. Some people
judge their lives on what they do, others on who they are.
I want my life judged on the friends I keep, and how
enriched I am from just knowing you. The times shared,
friendships forged and the incredible successes which
we have enjoyed have been an extraordinary part of my life.
I am very proud of what we have achieved and they
have been times I will never forget.

To quote Shakespeare:
"And whether we shall meet again I know not.
Therefore our everlasting farewell take:
Forever, and forever, farewell, friends!
If we do meet again, why, we shall smile;
If not, why, then this parting was well made. "

So... until the next time we gather, my very dear friends, farewell for now.

My heart is not ready, healing

2011-05-09T19:07:00.000-07:00

When someone is in your heart, they're never truly gone.
They can comeback to you, even at unlikely times.
And I believe that, no one can stop loving or caring
for someone in an instant... unless the feelings
were fake to start with.

I can't help but wonder if I'm capable of loving again.
My heart is not ready, still healing, still hurting.
Someone comes along into my life, at the right time.
Wanting to know me better, wanting to be with me.
Yet I feel myself irresistibly draw away
from this level of committing this quickly.

I have a lot of questions in my mind:
How long would you estimate would be a
normal about of time for someone to open up
to another person, after having a somewhat bumpy
relationship prior? How will I know I actually
love this person? How will I know that I'm not just
committing into it just to be the pleaser, thus starting
the door-mat type relationship all over again?
And finally, is it wrong of me to have second thoughts
about being in a committed relationship at this time?
I'm still not ready, where somehow somewhat my heart
still belong to H, where I still think about H most
of the time and missing H. Where I still believe
and still hoping that we can be back together again
would it be fair for the new person?

I know that it's ok ...to have all these doubts. There's no set
time clock to when to say "I love you" because it's a feeling,
not a mechanical response. When and if it is time
to say it to someone new, I'll know. I won't think about it;
it will be a purely emotional response, a feeling of security.
But for now, my heart is not ready; I can tell.
Every time I tried I felt my heart being pulled
in opposite directions. It wants to let go and try but then
again it pulls back and says no way, I cant handle it.

Time is actually the only thing I know that heals all wounds.
Pain is no fun as is a broken heart is no fun.
I took time to get to know myself again after the
broken relationship. I needed to know what I wanted and
what I needed to do for me to heal. I only know
that it took time for me to get to know me,
only then could I allow someone else in again to know
me as well as me getting to know them.
I'm giving myself some time to heal
and to love myself for who I am.
So that, I can love again.

" Most relationships fail because people rush
into them before knowing anything about each other.
Take your time. Don't waste your time. "

No regret, but love

2011-05-05T18:20:00.000-07:00

I need you for who you are,
even though the sun don't be shining
I remember you were by my side,
I want you for who you are,
Because when I'm with you, I can be myself.
Since you've been gone. Life still goes on.
But everyday feels like I'm breathing
but no longer living.

I can never take back that one essential moment in my life.
Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice,
but falling in love with you I had no control over.
and yes, I feel like I've caused a betrayal
to the most important person who's
touched my heart, but as time goes on,
I realize that it was just a mistake. An error in judgment.
One of many that I'll make on the rest of my journey.

I'm learning to forgive myself for that,
and move on with the rest of my life.
Sure, I wish I had a giant eraser
to get rid of it, but I can't. I have to take what I can
from that, and grow from it
That mistake doesn't define who I'm , it distinguishes me
from the rest, and helps me grow.

I remember that night, you speak when you are angry.
You shouted, screamed at me. It broke my heart,
into even smaller pieces. Yes, I know its my fault to begin with.
You want me out of your life, you don't want to have
anything to do with me. You want to be
happy again; you say. I can't help but to start crying.

And then you say, you started to have regret knowing me.
I once brought you up and now, I'm the one who bringing you down.
At that moment It feels like every other part of my body is broken too.
But H, I will never regret or say that I wish I'd never met you.
Because once upon a time, you were exactly what I needed.
And even up to now, if you wonder; I still love you as much.

I wish I could say I never loved you. But then
my tears would just yell at me for lying.
The fact is H, I never love you any less and I still need you in my life.
But for now, I have to learn living my life without you
hoping that one day, our path will cross again.

Sad Clown

2011-05-04T21:06:00.001-07:00

A good friend of mine,
called me yesterday night,
checking on me if I'm doing alright,
keeping up with the pain and heartbreak.
I can't help but wonder, how H is doing.

Without asking, she told me.
"Sayang, H is HAPPY now, H
feel much better and H feel lucky.
So please sayang, be HAPPY. Move on,
I don't want you to be upset and cry again
Accept the fact that H clearly don't need you anymore"

It's a slap to my face when I hear that.
I couldn't imagine, someone that I truly
love is doing much better without me in their life.
It crushes me to the ground. I don't want to
assume anything, I really hope that
wherever you are and whatever you do;
you are truly happy. That's what matter to me
the most now. For you, to be HAPPY.

What I learn from all this is that:
Never underestimate the pain of a person,
because everyone is struggling. Just that, some
people are better at hiding it than others.
Sometimes, I pretend to be HAPPY; to be a clown,
to make others HAPPY, just so I don't have to
explain why I'm not.

And for me, when you are in Love;
when you truly love someone, nothing matters
except the other person is HAPPY. Though,
you are not part of it.

You may see a smile on my face
But I assure you These are the Tears of A Clown. . .

What we enjoy eating, us.

2011-05-04T02:19:00.001-07:00

I treasure all of these food, because of H!
I miss eating them with H.
Something that I will always cherish.

She says, He says

2011-05-03T17:51:00.000-07:00

Subba:

Apr 13, 2011 8:07pm

I'm telling you what is the
best for you. Move on! and
be happy again. Be strong
and bold! Go for driving
class, get your license and
get a car! Go to gym,
keep urself
healthy. Accept the new
job, take the challenge,
discover new things in life.
Eat,laugh n cry as much u
want! Life goes on Syafiq!!
And pls la. Enough la Syafiq!
I know la sakit! it hurts me too.
This is life... Have to go on.

Illy Aishah:

Apr 24, 2011 11:57am

What else you cn do haaa ? tell me!
Thres nthng else you cn do ! Cme on.
Dnt be so lame sayang !
Cut it off! Move on!

Apr 25, 2011 1:05pm

Syafiq, do you wanna get
good ass kicking frm me
ke apa ! Mve on. H dnt
need you anymre baby !
Knock on your head and
you will knw sayang ! I
love you ! Byk lg orang yg
sayang you. So preciate
org yg sayang you
sekarang ni ! Ignre mana
yg dh tk ada lg ! Do preciate it.

Net:

Apr 23, 2011 2:46am

I know you love H
but you have to try to
forget him sapik.let it
go.please?if not u will
suffer.more hurt.tlglah
sygkan diri sendiri.pkr rmi
lg syg u tau.i boleh bg
kata2 semangat and jd a
good listener tp u kene
jgk tlg diri u.try harder
ok?u have to.u want H to
be happy kan?u need to
be happy too.

Wina:

Apr 26, 2011 9:15pm

Babe, I knw exactly
how you feel. I knw u
miss and love H
more than i could
imagined.but at the same
time,accept the fact that
H's no longer yours.its not
entirely your fault fiq.

Megat:

Apr 29, 2011 2:02pm

Yala I tahu u sakit tp nk
wat camne u xde guna u
still nk dia lg. dia dah org
lain skrg ni . I nk u jgn ingat
dia lg u trus je
kwn ngn sapa u suka at
least u blh lupakn dia u
kne byk abiskn masa
untuk bersuka ria if x u
still duk ingt kn dia.
Jgn salah kn diri,
u kne kuat tau.

I'm happy to have them as my friends
I'm glad that I still have all the support
and Love from them. The fact is
they can say whatever they want.
But, it’s hard to tell my mind to stop
loving you,when my heart still does.

I still love you with all the little pieces
of my heart that left, and they can't take
them away from me. It’s the only
thing I have that still has your name on it.
The memories that I cherish.

Wake Up Call

2011-05-02T22:43:00.000-07:00

Last weekend, It's been really hard on me.
The whole things that happened between us
finally hit me on my face and take a big tool on me.
We were supposed to go for a holiday at Penang.
But it doesn't happen the way I planned.
I'm very much upset, again its something that I have to pay
for my own mistake.

I tried to make myself busy, I call my friends out.
Saturday,Sunday,Monday,Tuesday 31st April - 3rd May,
I was out the whole time. Am to Am.
They tried to make me laugh, we went for a movie,
we had a talk, we had so much fun.
But at the back of my mind, in my heart,
I can't help but not to stop thinking about you.
I miss you H, I really do.
I still, love you as much.

Two days ago, I got to hear you voice. I feel relieved.
And yesterday, I saw you; with someone new.
At that moment a sense of urgency awakened me.
I panicked and cried a whole lot inside,
wondering how we were at this place
The place we never wanted to be
Apart, apart from each other.

You warned me once, not to say hello to you
if i saw you with someone new. "Awkward" you say.
All I want to do yesterday is run to you and say hello to you
and hug you and hold you close in my arms.
But I have to keep all that in my heart.
I don't have the strength to look at you nor to look straight into your eyes,
because my heart will shatter into pieces, and I don't want tears to
start running down. Seeing you, reminds me of how much I need you,
how much I love you, how much I miss you.

Today I awoke and looked in the mirror
I looked different, empty, sad and scared

I said to Myself:
I'm alone and the one person I loved
with all my heart is gone

A feeling of emptiness and loss has come over me
Everyday I cry thinking of you with someone else
Someone else taking my place
the place I never wanted to leave
How could I have ever let this happen?
It's all my fault,
Why did I keep pushing you away, you say.

If you would have told me a month ago
that on this day I would be alone
I would have told you "you're crazy"
Now a month later I'm still alone thinking
How I let that one person who made all the
difference in the world to me get away
and how you will never coming back.

You have changed me forever
I will never forget you 'til the day I die
Where ever you are I really hope you are happy.
Maybe one day our paths will cross again
H, I miss you my GILA.

=')

Incomplete

2011-05-01T10:32:00.000-07:00

H, I tried to tell you, but words got in the way.
Can’t express what I had to say
I tried to find you, to make you realize
But explanations won’t change your mind.
My life is incomplete without you

I can’t erase what I don’t regret, time goes by.
My heart won’t let me hide, thoughts I’ve tried so hard to disguise
H, I can’t stop thinking about you.
It’s been so long, since you've been gone.
I know you are the only one for me, you are all that someone could wish for
I couldn't ask for more.

H, remember all of the good times? think about it for awhile.
I'm incomplete without you in my life.
Sometimes we say things we don't mean, like we should go our separate ways
Not considering the love and time that we shared together.

H, at night I wish upon a star and hope that you are near; not far.
And that you are loving me, always.
And when I lay me down to sleep, I pray that our love will always keep.

H, I long for you. Want to hold you.
Cause in my heart, you are the only one who knows me.
But now, my tears complete the pain.
I miss your touch, your kiss, your smile.
And inside I know, our love will never ever die.

I let you get deep down inside of my heart
and you filled your love with it and nobody could replace you.
And now, you leave me incomplete; H.

I Will Remember You

2011-05-01T10:17:00.000-07:00

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard

Everytime

2011-04-29T07:26:00.000-07:00

I may have made it rain,
please forgive me,
My weakness caused you pain,
and this song's my sorry.

Begging for Forgiveness

2011-04-27T17:58:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time. we used to have fun...
Once upon a time, something happened to me,
it was the sweetest thing that ever could be, it was a fantasy,
a dream come true, it was the day that I met you.
Once upon a time, we were there for each other.
And, yes, there's been a lot of bad stuff in between.
But none of that matters right now, to me.
You need me, I'm there. Any time, any place, anywhere.
Because I know, I need you in my life.
But now it feels like war.

H, I can’t talk to you anymore; it’s not that I am mad at you,
I don't have the right anymore.
When I talk to you I realize how much I love you
and when I realize how much I love you,
I realize I can’t have you and that makes me love you even more.
And that makes me sad.
You know I spend every day thinking about you and dreaming about you,
and every time you walked by i lost myself,
do you know what that feels like?

H, a lot of people walk in and out of my life,
but your one of the only people i
ever really wanted to stick around. I talked to myself:
People change, Syafiq. Yes, they do.
People die, and they move away... and they grow up.
Everything changes eventually and I think sometimes you
have to lose someone completely before
you can figure out what they really mean to you.

H, I miss you when something really good happens,
because you're the one I want to share it with.
I miss you when something is troubling me,
because you're the one who understands me so well.
I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know
that you are the one that makes my laughter grow,
and my tears disappear.

I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most
when I lay awake at night, and think of all the wonderful
times that we spent with each other for those were some of the
best and most memorable times of my life.

H, I fill my days with memories of you.
I remember how you used to look at me,
as if I was your most valuable treasure.
Has you found a new treasure? I can't help but wonder
if we will be able to find our way back to each other.
The road seems so very long, and my head is crowded
with such a dark thought. I feel our bond grows
weaker by the day and I'm powerless to stop it.

I know that things between us are pretty much
beyond repair right now. And I wouldn't ever presume
to try and make everything better with a conversation,
so that's not what this is -- but I just wanted to tell you,
I wanted to say ... I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the pain it caused you.
But mostly I'm sorry for my part in it.
But mostly I'm sorry because I miss our relationship.
And however far off it may be, I look forward
to the day that we can be together again. Tho, as a friend.
The fact is, no matter what goes on this year,
when you come back to me again, you know I'll be here.

Yes, people change

2011-04-26T18:49:00.000-07:00

People might change but there are
two things that you can't change about them.
Their name and the memories you've had with them.
That's the reason why I still love you as much.

H, you're fine exactly as you are,
Your imperfections and flaws make you an unique individual.
After all, nobody's perfect and people do make mistake.
and I learn to live with it and to love you,
for who you are and I never hate you nor have the heart
to forget everything about you.
I can't get rid if this feeling I have for you
and I won't get rid of it.
I treasure what we have so much more than
anything else.

Wina:

"I don't understand how people can
erase you from their lives, just because
it's easier than working things out.
And if someone really love you,
they wouldn't let you slip away,
no matter how hard the situation is."

But H, they can say whatever they want
I never questioned your love for me.
It's tearing me up inside knowing that
we can't be together for the mistake I've done.
Something that I have to pay for.
Nevertheless, I'm still have hope and believe in us ;')

Don't You Remember

2011-04-26T18:43:00.000-07:00

When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any sins,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye,
And a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,

But I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye,

And a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
In hope that you'd find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,

Why don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?

:')

Skittles

2011-04-26T00:36:00.000-07:00

Today, I cried again.

Why?

This is the reason why.
One of my colleague, was eating the green packet skittles
while i pass by her table.
And I can't help but my tears come running down my cheek.

It reminds me of all the good memories we had,
watching movies while eating this skittles.
I miss you, I miss us :')

Gila!

2011-04-25T07:52:00.000-07:00

I couldn't find the right words to say,
how much I miss you, how much I need you, how much I love you.
Losing you, has been one of the most difficult things that I need to deal with.

Yes, I've hurt your feelings. Yes, I've broke your heart.
And I'm sorry, I mean it when I say; sorry.
No one is perfect, I know what my mistake is
and I'm learning to be a better person because of you
and you, change me for a better. You, brings light into my life.
And I never love you any less, indeed I love you more and more each day.
He say, she say, they can say whatever they want,
but the truth is, I'm the one who's dealing with this.

I wish I can turn back time, I wish I can be with you again,
work things out and we can be happy again.
I, should be blame for all this,
I'm the one who ruins our relationship.
And I, couldn't help but to hate myself for what had happened.
I wish you could see, I wish you know how much I've change,
for a better. I've learn my lesson and I'm not doing it again.

As I'm writing this, tears running down my cheek,
I wish you know H, how much i miss you.
How much I cried every night to sleep.

I woke up every middle of the night since then,
losing myself in the dark. Looking for the light,
wishing that we are still together. But its too late.
I have to pay for the damage that I've caused
and my heart is broken into pieces.
Deep down, I'm still wishing, and hoping that
somehow, someday, we can be together again.

H, if you ever wonder,
You are still, the first person who entered my mind every morning
and yet the last person who leave my mind every night.
You, complete me like no one ever does.
I, can see myself in you.

H, don't ever doubt yourself.
You're one hell great of a person,
you're amazing just the way you are.
Your life stories moved me, touched my heart.
I never met an individual as strong as you are.
You have a lot of potential in you,
you can be someone successful in the near future.
And I'll pray for your success, as always.

H, I'm sorry for hurting you, for ruining your night and day
for causing a lot of misery, in your life.
All I have for you, is my love.
It's breaking my heart when I have this feeling
and I can't get it to you. It's breaking my heart
when all I desire is to hug you and hold you tight in my arms
and I can only keep it to myself.

I'm scared H, to lose you entirely.
I need you in my life.
I have so much to say and all I can hope for,
this is not the end for us.

Lumrah Manusia vs Lumrah Alam

2010-04-02T05:42:00.000-07:00

Well i think this is my first ever entry
written in malay!seriously?lol
but its not my own words though,
i found this very interesting and heart catching
entry on the web, would love to share it with you guys!
so here you go:

Jika kamu memancing ikan....
Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail,
hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu....
Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN ia
semula ke dalam air begitu saja....
Kerana ia akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu
dan mungkin ia akan MENDERITA selagi ia masih hidup.

Begitulah juga ........

Setelah kamu memberi banyak PENGHARAPAN kepada seseorang...
Setelah ia mulai MENYAYANGIMU hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya....
Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja....
Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu
dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN
segalanya selagi dia mengingatmu. ...

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada,
jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya
dan janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh....
cukuplah sekadar KEPERLUANmu. ..
Apabila sekali ia retak.... tentu sukar untuk kamu
menampalnya semula.... Akhirnya ia dibuang....
Sedangkan jika kamu cuba memperbaikinya
mungkin ia masih dapat dipergunakan lagi....

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang,
TERIMALAH seadanya....
Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan
janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu ISTIMEWA....
Anggaplah dia manusia biasa. Apabila sekali dia melakukan
KESILAPAN bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya. ...
akhirnya kamu KECEWA dan meninggalkannya.
Sedangkan jika kamu MEMAAFKANNYA boleh jadi hubungan
kamu akan TERUS hingga ke akhirnya....

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi...
yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu.
Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat.
Mengapa kamu berlengah,
cuba mencari makanan yang lain..
Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan.
Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya. Kamu akan MENYESAL.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan.....
yang pasti membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu.
MENYAYANGIMU... MENGASIHIMU...
Mengapa kamu berlengah,
cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain.
Terlalu mengejar KESEMPURNAAN.
Kelak, kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain..
Kamu juga yang akan MENYESAL....

Susan Boyle: Cover Album, Revealed

2009-10-15T00:31:00.000-07:00

Susan Boyle's new album cover features
the global superstar as you have seen her
before--down-to-earth and natural.
Boyle's handlers are making sure that the
"Hairy Angel's" appeal is not diluted by Hollywood gloss.
On the cover of the 48-year-old's debut album
I Dreamed A Dream, she appears in all her wrinkled glory.

I Dreamed A Dream tracklisting:

"Wild Horses"
"I Dreamed A Dream"
"Cry Me A River"
"How Great Thou Art"
"You'll See"
"Daydream Believer"
"Up To The Mountain"
"Amazing Grace"
"Who I Was Born To Be"
"Proud"
"The End Of The World"
"Silent"

Done

2009-10-11T22:44:00.000-07:00

hey!omg, im so excited.im back now.
after 4 months of practical training,
im successfully done with it!
i cant believe that i manage to pull things off
at the work place and i have no idea that its
gonna be this emotional to leave "them"

its over now and im ready for more action!
i believe that im a better person now and
i've learn so much valuable things!
to all Parkroyal Kuala Lumpur associates,
thank you so much!

p/s: im having semester break now, up until 25th October!

It's been forever!

2009-09-01T05:23:00.001-07:00

i know right! and im sorry,
i've been busy, real busy!

this is how my life looks like now:
i have to go to work everyday including saturday,
from 9am to 5pm. so basically i go to bed around
11pm every night and wake up at around 630am
every morning! i need to leave house around 715am
to make sure that im able to reached work place before time.
and i reached home around 615pm after work!

pretty lame isn't it?yes it is and i miss my social life
just like that!i can't wait to go back to uni life!

i'll be back guys, soon!very soon!

I'm Busy

2009-08-02T08:07:00.000-07:00

Life get the best of me,
im busy with so much stuffs.
i have so much to share but i don't have the time!
be back really soon!

Get in contact with me via Facebook instead.
do add me at syarefiqe_cute@yahoo.com
hugs.

Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis

2009-07-18T05:04:00.000-07:00

English longest word!pheewww.
I can't even pronounce it well,
and I thought Mary Poppins’
Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious is the longest!

Wikipedia

Births and Deaths in real time

2009-07-18T04:57:00.000-07:00

This is interesting: http://www.breathingearth.net

Really shows how small our day to day problems are.

Pay attention to the numbers at the bottom right
increasing and decreasing.

whatever!

2009-07-13T06:09:00.000-07:00

what is the world most annoying word?
personally, i hate the word whatever!
it should never be invented in the first place!
for me its carry the same meaning as
"who cares" and "like i care" ?

or sometimes perhaps when people lost words
or have no idea how to express their feelings
they will say that word too, which is annoying to me!

another reason on why people used that word is
when they're losing an argument and the next thing to say
is whatever, shhhh i could strangle!

what do u guys think?

Kapten Boleh @ Chnl 611

2009-07-10T21:55:00.000-07:00

Yeay, hari ahad ni which is esok

tengok la aku in action @ channel 611
cerita kapten boleh.tak sure episode berapa.

Shooting cerita ni dah lama ok!time tu rambut panjang,
rambut betul yea!bukan rambut palsu(Ramai orang tanya)!
haha.so jgn lupa esok 10am!

Oh lagi satu, Manjalara.episode bila tak sure.
tp next week rasanya!kalau tak silap la!

p/s: thanks Syia/Julie teman shooting that time!

Donna @ MSU

2009-07-06T06:34:00.000-07:00

So i've been telling a friend of mine, Donna

that i've seen his adv on monorail train.
he's been dying to see that adv since he
never got the chance to catch the train!

well im using monorail everyday to get to work place,
and i manage to snap couple of photos that consist
of him on MSU advertisement, now you're happy huh!
im a crappy photographer, orang ramai la weh, tebal muka,
even though its not that good, but you manage to see it now.
thanks to me!

p/s: so you figured, Donna is the guy with the white
shirt on the MSU adv. Donna is his real name yeah,
Donna Muslim Nuzmul Komar.

I oficially. . .

2009-07-06T06:19:00.000-07:00

survive the first month of internship!yeay!

so far so good!i do enjoy it!so far. . .
but its kinda boring sometimes, perhaps because
i have a high expectation before its even started.
and there's nothing close to my expectation thus far.
im hoping for more!

its only the first month but i got the chance to talk and
present my project (handling corporate gift project)
in front of the board meeting!can you imagine?
all the big boss are there. GM and division Managers!
but yeah, i want more!been doing a lot of paper work so far.

Malaysia Mega Sales

2009-07-06T05:34:00.000-07:00

4th July - 31st August!

so as usual, Mega sales is back.
Started last saturday and gonna end on August.
so aku pun keluar la last saturday after work around 2pm,
met with nina and then around 4 with my other besties!

we went to Pavillion, just to window shopping!
what to do, takda duit nak beli.tgk je la!mcm nak gila ok.
sales sana sini, semua nak beli. tapi satu apa pun tak mampu!
haih!menganga je la then.none of us did purchase anything!
the girls sempat la jugak try sana sini, baju, kasut and all!
tapi yeah, we never did purchase anything!berangan je.

so after all, we decided to watch movie! and we manage to catch
8pm movie, which is Last House on the Left!i wanted to watch
Ice Age 3, but majority rules! what i have in my mind
before the movie startedis that, its gonna be lame boring movie!
bunch of teenagers get lost in jungle and one by one get murdered and all!
but i was wrong!that movie was great!i enjoyed it so much!
i suggest you too go and watch it!thriller gila weh!

orang ramai, launching mega sale!

While the mums sibuk rebut kasut, kesian budak2
ni terbiar!hahaha.

mampu cuba dan lihat je la!haih=/

Meet.... Shaker!

p/s: btw terserempak dgn Shaker!omg i get a very
tight warm hug!ye la lama gila tak jumpa!
rindu bangat! go to see you buddy!

English is difficult language . . . for some . . .

2009-06-30T05:19:00.001-07:00

Yeah i do get confused sometimes!

susah jgk la guna english ni.tak tau bila nak letak "ed"
or bila nak letak "ing", bila nak pakai "ate" or "eat" and so on.
memang mengelirukan!tp takda la se-confused Japanese people!

This is a true story from the Japanese Embassy in US!!!

Back then, Prime Minister Mori was given some
Basic English conversation training before he visits
Washington and meets President Barack Obama...

The instructor told Mori Prime Minister,
when you shake hand with President Obama, please say 'how r u'.

Then Mr. Obama should say, 'I am fine, and you?'
Now, you should say 'me too'. Afterwards we,
translators, will do the work for you.'

It looks quite simple, but the truth is...

When Mori met Obama , he mistakenly said
'who r u?' (Instead of 'How r u?'.)

Mr. Obama was a bit shocked but
still managed to react with humor:
'Well, I'm Michelle's husband, ha-ha..'

Then Mori replied 'me too, ha-ha.. .'.

Then there was a long silence in the meeting room.
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What the duck?i dont know how true this is!
but still, its funny!

Movie Check List

2009-06-30T04:56:00.000-07:00

so after long awaited, akhirnya dapat jugak tgk

Transformers Revenge of the fallen!
tu pun nasib, serious lucky gila.tak sangka.
last Saturday went to Pavillion cuba nasib nak tgk that movie,
but sampai dkt counter its happened that the ticket sold out.
not only for that movie, but for all the others as well!what the duck?

then walked to Times Square with no hope of watching that movie pun,
queued sampai dkt counter saja je tanya ada ticket tak,
sekali dia ckp "lucky you, ada 2 canceled reservation", apa lagi!menjerit
la kat situ.tiba2 tak sangka, happy gila!

so the movie was great!really enjoyed watching it.its like for real!
tak nak cerita banyak.nanti spoiled pulak for those who,
ketinggalan,oppppss!yg tak tgk lagi.lol!cant wait for the sequel.

so as for July,
im waiting to watch these movie's below,
so anyone wanna movie date me? haha.
excited ni!

1. Ice Age - Dawn of Dinosaurs (1st July)

2. Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince (16 July)

3. Skrip 7707 (16 July)

4. The Proposal (30 July)

It's a good idea . . .

2009-06-26T18:37:00.000-07:00

to check your pics before putting them on
Facebook/Myspace/Twitter and many others
online friends meeting!look at below picture and
tell me what's wrong with it?no editing no nothing!
for real, a friend of friend of mine found this on Facebook!

Makcik aku takut dengan ulat

2009-06-25T07:04:00.000-07:00

Literally not my makcik la (HAHA)
found this interesting youtube video.
i burst out loud laughing, watching this video!
enjoy!

Aku geli bila ...

2009-06-22T07:29:00.001-07:00

ok since start working as intern, hari2 aku travel
naik train star from ampang to hang tuah,
then interchange to monorail, pg bukit bintang.
from there jalan kaki je la pg park royal.around 5 mins walk je.
mcm tu la hari2 rutin, 7am dah keluar rumah.
ptg, kdg2 mlm baru smpi rumah.

so bila dah travel hari2, mcm2 ragam orang aku jumpa.
sometimes funny,geram,weird pun ada!
tapi aku geli bila. . . .

1. bercinta, bermanja dalam train - pantang gila kot!lagi2 bila
balik time petang.orang dah la ramai.sesak2,dia boleh plk
bercinta berpeluk dlm train!what the duck?lagi2 ada
this one time, that girl bertudung!berpeluk sakan
dgn bf dia, muka pun budak lagi!berhingus lagi.grrrr!
awakk.. nak ne nu ne.. awakk nanti kita pg ni nu ne eh meluat aku!

2. badan berbau,berpeluh - lagi satu masalah dunia,
kalau korang nak rasa,naik la train petang2 time orang balik kerja.
mmg aku tak salahkan penumpang, semua orang nak balik cepat.
so train mmg penuh,mengalahkan sardin!dah meraba sana sini,
tu perkara biasa.tp aku geli bila, kau tu dah la berpeluh2
badan berbau, pastu kau himpit jugak nak naik train,
habis tgn aku pun melekit kena peluh kau.dgn bau badan lagi.
masyAllah.boleh pengsan kot!

3. loud talker - aku tak kesah kau nak berborak dlm train
time orang sesak.sukati kau lah, kau punya phone.tapi kalau
kau tak berborak sampai satu gerabak train tu dengar, tak sah ke?
habis gossip office,jiran sebelah semua aku dgr!
bingit telinga!

4. mulut berbau,batuk,nafas - ni paling aku tak tahan,
ye aku paham kau nak batuk, aku tak marah.tp takyah la batuk kat
muka aku.cuba tekup mulut tu dgn kain ke?dah la mulut berbau.
pastu ada pulak yg nak bernafas kat blkng tengkuk aku?
ewww loya tekak!

5. meludah tak tentu pasal - time nak lintas jalan especially, ada je
manusia yang tak beritaka sukati ayah dia je meludah kat jalan tu.
dgn siap bunyi krooh kreehhh krooohh tarik panjang2 najis dia
tu pastu ludah, hijau pekat pulak color dia!yewwww.
tak malu ke wey?

High-5 Bread, STOP EATING!!

2009-06-18T06:07:00.000-07:00

What the duck??

Please spread this news to friends and family,
Let them know how shit this bread are...
Stop taking this bread, you can make a difference.

I e-meow U, U e-meow me

2009-06-16T20:35:00.000-07:00

Let me share this joke with u!

its really funny. Thanks Viv, u made my day.
so here u go:

Dear Ah Lian

Thanks you for your letter. Wrong time no see you.
How everything? For me, I am quiet find.

You say in your letter your taukeh soh
want you to chain your look? Somemore you must
wear kick kok soo, hope you can wok properly.

You know, Ah Kau Kia working in a soft where company now.
Last week, he take I, Muthu & few of his friend
to May Nonut to eat barger. After that he take we all
go to kalah ok. Muthu sing and sing no stop until the sky bright.

Next week, my father mother going to sellerbread
20 years Annie wear sari. My father mother going
to give a fist to all the kampong people.
So you must come with your hole family.

I only hope one day we no need to
write and send letter to you and to me.
Better I e-meow you, you e-meow me.
I will ketchup with you soon. And when you got time,
please few free to call me. Goo bye.....

Worm regard,
Ah Beng

Freaky!try it out!!

2009-06-15T09:13:00.000-07:00

I've been bored! lets play this!

Try it......you will be surprised

Here's something that you may enjoy:

Have you ever wondered if your mind is normal or different?? Well, do this little mind exercise and find out at the end!! Free will or synaptic wiring? You be the judge. Check out the following exercise, guaranteed to raise an eyebrow. There's no trick or surprise. Just follow these instructions, and answer the questions one at a time and as quickly as you can. Again, as quickly as you can but don't advance until you've done each of them...really. Now, scroll down (but not too fast,you might miss something)........

What is:

1+5

2+4

3+3

4+2

5+1

Now repeat saying the number 6 to yourself as fast as you can for 15 seconds.

Then scroll down.

QUICK!!! THINK OF A VEGETABLE!

Then scroll down.

Keep going.

You're thinking of carrot, right?

If not, you're among the 2% of the population whose minds are different enough to think of something else.

98% of people will answer with carrot when given this exercise.

Freaky, huh?

share your answer in the comment!

Discharge!

2009-06-10T07:54:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah, hari ni berita gembira dari doctor,
emak dah dapat discharge from hospital.
Around 4pm tadi mak dah selamat pulang ke rumah!

She's getting better, but still in a weak condition.
Take a rest mak, we'll be good!

Get well really soon mak!Amin.

p/s: this week has been such a busy and tiring week for me.
ill do an update on this blog
as soon as i got the time to do so!

Wad 424

2009-06-08T08:46:00.001-07:00

Recently, mak tak berapa sihat. for past couple of days,

dia demam,tak larat nak buat kerja rumah and feeling weak.
Including today, dah masuk hari ke-4 satu family
makan dekat luar je. bagi peluang mak nak berehat.

Early today, mak pergi Hospital Ampang Puteri ditemani adik.Aku risau,
sebenarnya dari malam tadi aku rasa tak sedap hati. Tidur tak lena.
Tepat waktu habis kerja, abah sms inform yang mak kena masuk wad.
luruh jantung aku dengar, risau entah apa jadi dekat mak. Aku pun
terus bergegas pergi hospital. Around 7pm mcm tu baru dapat tatap
muka mak.lega hati dapat tau yang nothing serious, dapat tengok mak senyum.
Tapi mak cakap she will be warded for at least 2 days. kurang
kandungan gula dalam badan, kurang air and some other things.

Mak inform dkt kitaorg adik beradik yang doktor nasihatkan mulai
hari ni kena amik insulin, injection setiap malam utk elak complication.
terngiang2 dkt telinga bila mak cakap "mak tak sakit teruk tau, cuma doktor nasihatkan ambik insulin ni untuk elak jadi teruk je".
Sedih aku dengar, menagis hati aku ni.

Mak, semoga cepat sembuh yea.we need you!AMIN!!
tanpa mak, memang rumah tak terurus. Takpa, mak jangan risau
Syafiq akan cuba bantu segala yang boleh. Mak ambil la masa berehat.
Syafiq sayang mak!

p/s: Thanks Danial (adik) sebab teman mak tidur dkt hospital!

Public Toilet @ Malaysia

2009-06-05T08:41:00.000-07:00

Im mad!To be honest i don't know what the duck

happened with some of the public toilets in this country!
i mean like, dirty is very common and synonym with Malaysia
public toilet,its not a new thing. However, in my personal view
there has been much improvement in recent years; that's the good news.

The bad news is, yes it is nice and clean but
where the hell is the water hose?like what happen?
does it went missing?someone stole it(obviously not)?
what the duck?its like a must to have a water hose for us,
especially muslim(and some others) to wash their [censored]
and hands after a long session. I believe that it's much cleaner that way.
Don't you think so? what the reason behind it?recession?i have no clue!

I went to some public toilet in KLCC, Lot 10 and other places
to do my business transaction(hahaha) and im surprised to find out
that there's no water hose?my god.Malaysia is so called
Muslim country isn't it?what the duck happen?
i find it very difficult and uneasy to left the toilet
after a long session!

Imagine this, you are caught in a traffic jam and
your stomach is growling and you can start to feel
the bullet train on its way out of the tunnel.
You saw a petrol station a few meters ahead and
decided to stop by there and release your built-up pressure.
The moment you opened the toilet door, you were greeted by
the smell of human derived obnoxious smelling gas with
a mixture of petai sambal and papaya.
You took a peek and to your horror there are
some dried up 'stuff' still on the jamban.
on top of that there's NO WATER HOSE?

grrrrr!!!

I will survive!

2009-06-02T07:01:00.000-07:00

So its well known that, yesterday i start working
as a trainee at marketing communication department
in Parkroyal Hotel, Bukit Bintang!
what can i say?so far so good.that's not many of us in that
department.believe it or not, atm there's only 3 of us
including me!hahaha.suppose there's 5 staff all together
but then one of the girl is on her maternity leave
and another girl just resigned last month!

You can imagine how much of work they need to do,
apart from their job,they need to cover up the other 2 girls task.
so, im the one who replacing their place atm and doing all the stuff!
What the duck?its only the 2nd day and im advisable to
continue my work overtime!but its ok,
i do enjoy it!i learn a lot of new stuff!

Early today, i have 1 new assignment given by the manager.
Its pretty exciting, because im going to meet clients all by myself!
can't wait!i will talk more about it in future post!

p/s: anyway i might not be able to post in here
as much as before, sorry in advance!

1st day - 1st June

2nd day - 2nd June

New hair cut

2009-05-31T05:51:00.000-07:00

I just get back to KL today from Melaka!

and guess what, im going to start my internship

tomorrow at Park Royal Hotel, Bukit Bintang!

What the duck, im excited yet nervous.

So fo that, today i went to a nearby saloon to get a

new appropriate hair style,just like what the HR manager

wanted!so yeah.here's the final result!do leave some comments!

personally, i do like it!but i think that i look like secondary school student!lol.

Night at the Museum 2 - Battle of the Smithsonian

2009-05-27T10:46:00.000-07:00

Today was kinda lame,bosan tak tau nak buat apa.

so to fill our free time, aku ajak housemate aku Qubis
pergi tengok movie dkt Melaka Mall. which is like
10 mins away from our house.dekat je kan!

Qubis insist nak tengok Terminator, tapi aku taknak!
aku nak tengok something yg boleh crack my mind,
then laugh out loud the whole night.so at last, tgk jgk la
night at the museum ni. aku excited sangat sebab
masa 1st movie ni, aku sgt enjoy.ketawa tak ingat.

Too bad,the first 10 mins je aku dah bosan.
cerita ni sumpah bosan gila.tention aku!Qubis lagi duk complain!
sampai aku tertidur kot dalam panggung tadi!sangat la lame
lawak2 yg dia buat dan unlogical tahap melampau!tention aku!!
for me personally, the movie was ok je la. i give 2.5/5 stars.
what the duck? sorry Qubis.

Gila jalan - shopping @ DP

2009-05-27T10:05:00.000-07:00

Location: Dataran Pahlawan
Day/Date: Tuesday, 23/05/09
Time: 5pm - 11pm

1st June ni aku start praktikal/internship dkt
Park Royal Hotel, Bukit Bintang.Sangat la
excited tp nervous at the same time.hari2 la korang
tgk muka aku kat Bukit Bintang tu nanti(lame).
So waktu kerja isnin-jumaat,9am-5pm, sabtu half day!

Sbb aku takda bnyk baju formal nak bawak pergi kerja
nanti, so aku ajak la Julie dgn Azwin teman aku shopping!
yeay!habis je exam smlm, terus pergi Dataran Pahlawan.
End of the day dapat la jugak beli baju kemeja 3 helai,
pants sehelai,belt,kasut,sweater! tapi tak cukup tu,
next time dah ada duit, nak beli lagi. quack quack!
so wish me luck yea for my internship.

Gila jalan - Jonker Street + The Jetty

2009-05-26T11:28:00.000-07:00

Location: Jonker Street, The Jetty

Day/Date: Saturday, 23/05/09

Time: 6pm - 1am

Kalau waktu siangnya aku pg Mydin dgn Julie,
waktu malamnya pulak, ada plan lain.
since Julie tak puas hati tak jumpa2 accessories dia,
dia nak pergi Jonker pulak.so kitaorg pun ajak la
Azwin sekali,the more the merrier kan!

So around 7pm (rehat 3 jam je - dr balik exam,Mydin)
Julie pick up aku and then Azwin. Then terus pergi Jonker.
Aku rasa, maybe ni la kali terkahir aku jejakkan
kaki kat Jonker ni before aku pergi Intern next month!

Aku mmg suka pergi Jonker Street,
bagi aku tempat tu unik!mcm2 benda yg korang tak boleh
jumpa dkt tmpt lain ada dkt sini.barang2 kraftangan pun banyak!
food jgn ckp la!especially baba nyonya food!sedap weyh!
plus harga barang2 kat sini sgt affordable,
tapi crowd tak payah ckp la, mmg pack!
seronok aku kacau anak orang!hahaha.
Sekali lagi, dgn jayanya Julie tak beli apa2 yea!
What the duck? kan.haha.takpa, puas jalan.

After spending around 2-3 hours dkt Jonker tu.
kitaorg bertiga ni lapar, so apalagi pergi makan asam pedas pulak,
one of the best in town, kalau korang ada chance
dtg melaka try la asam pedas claypot Kota Laksamana!
sumpah sedap, tak percaya tanya Sherry/Bubu.

Lepas makan tu, masing2 taknak balik lagi.
bosan, jadi aku cadangkan kitaorg pergi The Jetty.
goggle la pasal tmpt ni!secara ringkasnya tmpt ni
dkt tgh laut!tmpt untuk karaoke, hang out, chit chat segala.
Ada open air cafe, kena bayu angin laut, sumpah best!
plus lagu2 yg diaorg pasang kat situ sgt la masuk
dgn kepala hati aku ni! kalau korg nak bawak partner
korang datang sini disarankan la sgt!romantic yea!hahaha.

Nak ke tengah laut tu korang ada 2 alternative,
1 - jalan kaki, 2 - naik caddy car. dua2 free tak kena charge(lame).
nak lepak dekat cafe tu pun lepak la takyah bayar!nak minum
bayar la yea(mana boleh semua free). plus karaoke dia sgt murah.
aku lupa brp charge tapi mmg murah nak banding tmpt lain.
oh one more thing, dkt Jetty ni before ke tgh laut,
dkt persisir laut ni ada club, live band! Arena namanya!
plus dkt situ ada mcm2 kedai lagi, cafe mkn mmg bnyk,
internet cafe ada, pool-snooker pun ada!

Around 12 midnight mcm tu, semua dah penat.
Julie pun ajak balik!i had so much fun that day!
mesti rindu all this thing nanti=(

p/s: Melaka waktu malam sangat cantik!

Gila jalan

2009-05-26T07:59:00.000-07:00

Ok, Kalau korang baca entry aku sblm ni

aku ada ckp yg skrg ni aku tgh exam week.
starting last week till this week, which is 18th-26th of May.
so actually today was my last paper!!
im so excited about it, no word can express.

Tapi aku dgn kwn aku dua org ni, Azwin & Julie
mmg gila jalan.ada exam pun still boleh berjalan!
tp bersebab ok, bukan suka2.because of tight schedule
that we have, we can still find time to go out,
chill,do some crazy things and forget about exam papers.

so bawah ni korang witness la sendiri betapa gilanya
kitaorg berjalan,photo whore and shopping!yeay!

*untuk aktiviti Wednesday,20/05/09 korang refer
entry Dataran Pahlawan Melaka Megamall.

Ok here goes,

Location: Pasar Lambak
Day/Date: Thursday, 21/05/09
Time: 5-7pm

Ok time ni saja2 je, bosan tak tau nak buat apa.
stress sbb paper berderet 18,19,20 May.
so aku ajak la diaorg jalan, tp tak tau nak pg mana.
at last pergi pasar lambak je!jadi la.
aku borong habis la jgk dlm rm13.
beli laksa,rojak buah,keropok lekor,nasi lemak sotong,
air asam 2 bungkus,vadee,tahu bakar dgn popiah goreng!gila tak?
quack quack!!

NEXT

Location: Mydin(biggest in Malaysia)
Day/Date: Saturday, 23/05/09
Time: 12-4pm

That day, kitaorg ada exam Foundation of Finance
from 9-11am.so lepas exam Julie ajak lunch +
beli accessories dia utk our upcoming marketing dinner.
aku tanpa berfikir terus cakap, YES! JOM! haha.
so pergi la MYDIN, lunch dkt sana.aku tgk ada lauk
ketam masak lemak nenas cili api, apa lagi!amik la.
ratah dgn Julie ketam tu tanpa segan silunya!at last
Julie tak beli apa2 pun!what the duck kan?
perut je kenyang.hahaha.
Fingerlicious licking good!

p/s: to be continued in the next entry !

She did it again!

2009-05-25T00:55:00.000-07:00

Surprise singing sensation Susan Boyle
made a new television appearance Sunday,
showcasing once again her soaring voice —
but refusing to compromise on the
frumpy look that made her an Internet sensation.

Members of the public voting in a telephone poll
picked her as the best of eight performers
who appeared Sunday, meaning she will
sing again in the contest's final next Saturday.

On Sunday, the show's judges and audience
rose to their feet to applaud.

Zee Avi @ Kokokaina

2009-05-22T09:58:00.000-07:00

Omg im so proud of her,
listen to the below song and u'll get what i mean.
such a wonderful voice!gift from god.
btw here's a lil bit info about her :

Zee Avi also known as KokoKaina is a Malaysian
musician,singer-songwriter, guitarist, and ukulele player.
She was born in Miri, Sarawak, on the island of Borneo.
She moved to Kuala Lumpur when she was 12.
She studied fashion design at
American InterContinental University in London.

Avi originally posted a video of her first song
on YouTube because one of her friends had
missed her first performance in Kuala Lumpur,
so she created a video on YouTube for him to watch.
He convinced Avi to leave the video up,
and soon she received positive feedback,
which inspired her to put more videos on YouTube.

After she was featured YouTube,
she attracted the attention of Brushfire Records,
with which she would join.
Her song "No Christmas For Me" is featured on
Brushfire Records's 2008 Christmas album
This Warm December: A Brushfire Holiday.

Her single "Bitter Heart" was first to become available
on the US iTunes store, and her full self-titled debut album
was released on May 19, 2009.
On the day of her album's release,
YouTube featured her on the front page
in Spotlight: Music Tuesday.
She is currently touring the United States.

You can now google her and find out,
more a lot about her and you can also found her
music video in YouTube!

Zee Avi official website

And your new American idol is?

2009-05-21T05:34:00.000-07:00

I can't believe it,

but here goes...
the winner of American Idol season 8 is
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seriously?

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KRIS ALLEN, yeah!
some may hate the fact that ADAM LAMBERT(my favorite pick) did not won,
but for some this is a sweet victory!
whatever it is, its over and both of them had a
bright future in the music industry.

Kris Allen - Winner

Adam Lambert - Runner up

Dataran Pahlawan Melaka Megamall

2009-05-20T06:48:00.000-07:00

Ok lepas 3 killer paper exam berturut2

aku buat, hari ni aku mampu bergelak ketawa.
jadi gila sikit hari ni, sbb paper semuanya susah, suka aku!!
yeay,seronoknya.senang hidup mcm ni.memang tak la!
dgn tak tidurnya lagi, penat, mata dh mcm panda,
otak bercelaru, tak tau nak fikir apa dah.biarlah!

tup tup lepas exam pagi tadi julie call,
ajak teman dia pergi shopping for our coming
marketing farewell dinner.yea la, masing2 nak grad dahT_T
so aku pun apa lagi, katakan yea pada julie!
walaupun, tak mandi dari sblm pergi exam lagi.hehe.
pergi amik azwin terus shoot pergi Dataran Pahlawan.

at last julie beli hairspray je.ishk!
aku dgn azwin pulak makan angin je la.
seronok kot bersiar2 dalam mall tu.
lepas tu, around 4pm mcm tu baru aku sampai rumah!
sekarang bosan,lapar tak tau nak buat apa,
so aku pun edit la layout blog ni!
for the first time, menjadi ok!bangga ni=D

So apa lagi?
bagi la comment dan pujian sikit.hahaha.

Mampus aku!

2009-05-18T09:58:00.000-07:00

Tention, geram!
MMU ni tak reti buat schedule exam ke?
bengangnya!mcm mana nak study mcm ni!
exam bersusun!

18th - Strategic Marketing (was ok la, need more time.tak cukup masa tadi, i can do more)
19th - Research Methods for Marketing
20th - Statistics for Managers (mampus aku)
23rd - Foundation of Finance mampus,mampus,mampus......)
26th - Retail Management

Mmg tak tdo la, study je.mampus aku!mampus.
dah la aku benci kira2.paper bersusun!adoiiii!
Ya Allah beri aku kekuatan!
Aku boleh!aku pasti boleh!

Barbeque Party

2009-05-18T08:38:00.000-07:00

Location : Port Dickson

Day/Date : Friday-Saturday, 01-02/05/09
Peeps : Sofia,Nina,Iylia,Megat,Joyce,Net and Myself.
Purpose : Celebrating Net 24th birthday!
Accomodation : Glory Beach Resort

We had such a wonderful time, having to eat on the sea side,
looking on the moon and stars on the sky,
with the breeze of sea !!

Dramatari

2009-05-18T08:20:00.000-07:00

Location : Main Hall, MMU Melaka

Day/Date : Sunday, 26/04/09
Peeps : Wina,Azwin,Julie,Khei,Azra and Myself
Purpose : Watching and supporting our friend who act in the theater, chill out.

The show was awesome, kudos to them.
We truly enjoy watching it, so gonna go for it again!
Cant wait!!

MMU Awards

2009-05-18T06:53:00.000-07:00

Location : Grand Hall, MMU Cyberjaya

Day/Date : Saturday, 25/04/09
Peeps : Azwin, Net, Megat, Ilya, Sofia, Joyce, Amir, Myself and many more!!
Purpose : Award presentation for club and society

I have great times meeting my besties,
old friends and new friends!
and the food was delicious!

Picnic

2009-05-18T06:18:00.000-07:00

Location : Sagil Waterfall

Day/Date : Sunday, 15/03/09
Peeps : Azra,Khei,Syia,Julie,Azwin and Myself.
Purpose: Get crazy and have fun!

Well we have soooo much fun!gonna miss the moment!
i will cheer every memory that i had with them.

Quick Note!!

2009-05-15T23:33:00.000-07:00

Final Exam is back!
Been very busy stuDYING for it.
i have a very tight schedule,
my paper is on 18,19,20,23 and 26 of May!

Good news,
i've been selected to go for internship
at Park Royal Hotel, Bukit Bintang.
yeay!im excited and nervous at the same time!
will start my internship on 1st of June, for duration of 4 months.

The marketing manager lady who interviewed me
told me that im the only Male and Malay in her department.
the rest is all Chinese Female.woot woot!!

Bad news,
from now onwards,ill be super duper busy!
and you know why=D
ill get in here as soon as i got the time to do so.
till then, take care!hugs.

Paulina Porizkova - Fired

2009-05-15T23:18:00.000-07:00

"I was fired by 'America's Next Top Model'
on my birthday," she said.
Paulina's birthday is April 9.
The supermodel, who has two sons
with husband Ric Ocasek, formerly of The Cars,
said she was let go from the show to lessen the load.

"The reason I was told I was fired was because,
it seemed that 'America's Next Top Model' has
gotten too fat and they needed to cut some fat
and the fat was me," she said.
"So I figured it was either that
or my gigantic huge ego, which I wasn't aware of
until I was told by the producers that
I have an ego problem," she later added.

Poor her, I wonder who the new judge is.

"Slumdog" child star's Mumbai shanty home torn down

2009-05-15T23:07:00.000-07:00

City authorities in Mumbai demolished

the shanty home of a "Slumdog Millionaire"
child star on Thursday, forcing his family
into the streets months after the
Oscar-winning film shot him to global fame.

Ismail's tarpaulin-covered home in a
teeming slum was one of several shanties,
illegally built along a drain,
that were demolished by local authorities
in Mumbai, India's financial capital
and entertainment hub.

Azharuddin Ismail, 9,
played the character of Salim as a child in the film,
a rags-to-riches romance about
a poor Indian boy competing for
love and money on a television game show.

"When they came I was sleeping, they shook me awake
and one policeman even threatened me,"
Ismail, surrounded by half-broken suitcases
filled with clothes and utensils.
"What can I do if they have demolished my house?
I will sleep out in the open."

POOR HIM!!

22 Years Old Susan Boyle

2009-05-04T18:00:00.000-07:00

Video has emerged of Susan Boyle singing
back when she was a comely 22-year-old.
The tape was unearthed by Gerry McGuinness, 61,
who was in the audience that night at
Motherwell Football Club's social club in Scotland.

well about her "never been kissed" statement,
"That was made as a joke! Never been kissed?
I've never stopped." said Susan Boyle.
let's take a look at this video of her,
during 1995 singing audition.

Radit dan Jani

2009-04-28T07:09:00.000-07:00

SUMPAH!! cerita ni best gila.
baik korang pergi cari cerita ni sampai dapat.
beli la dvd ke, download ke apa2 je lah.
yg penting korang kena tgk cerita ni!
sumpah best!! sweet gila cerita ni.

So this movis is about,
love story!tp much diff from others lame
love stories. movie ni touched my heart!
sex,love,drugs,alcohol,family conflict!complete.
its more realistic and up to date.takda nak jiwang2 sgt!

sweeeeettt sgt2 cerita ni.pg la cari please!
basically this couple, newly wed is
so much in love with each other,
they even call each other BODOH!
aku sayang kau la BODOH
i miss you BODOH
i love you BODOH.
BRUTALLY ROMANTIC!!

The acting pun bagus gila,
perfect.i couldn't ask for more.
just wish that the ending would be diff.

Ckp bnyk pun tak guna!
pergi la cari, tgk sendiri,
mesti leleh.

Boyle's In the Brown Stuff

2009-04-24T07:51:00.000-07:00

Its official - Susan Boyle got a makeover.
Boyle, 47, had her graying, frizzy hair dyed
chestnut brown and styled for reportedly $50 dollars.

The singer, who was seen earlier this week in
a new dress and black leather jacket, showed off
another chic ensemble -- topped with a Burberry scarf --
outside her home in Blackburn, Scotland.

Earlier this week - Susan with a
lightweight leather jacket and
a purple printed frock .

New look - Susan this morning

Undercover - Susan with shawl

Hairdo - Susan with her sister

Vampire Early Age Modelling

2009-04-23T06:27:00.000-07:00

Let's take a look at Robert Pattinson

early ages past modelling.
Look at how adorable he is!
and he look a little awkward too.
work that pout!lol.

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

2009-04-23T05:38:00.000-07:00

Let's take a look at the teaser of

Harry Potter 6th installment!
i personally can't wait for this movie premier.
woohoooo.

Michael Gambon as Professor Dumbledore
and Daniel Radcliffe as Harry Potter

Jim Broadbent as Professor Slughorn and
Emma Watson as Hermione Granger

Bonnie Wright as Ginny Weasley and
Rupert Grint as Ron Weasley

Tom Felton as Draco Malfoy and
Alan Rickman as Professor Snape

Happy Birthday April's Babies

2009-04-19T05:10:00.000-07:00

Well this topic specially dedicated to

my lovely hearted friends who celebrate
their birthdays this month!

Happy birthday friends!
glad to know you and hope to
be friend with you forever!
I always Love u!!

So yeah,
Happy Birthday!
May god bless You,
May all your dreams come true,
May happiness always be with u,
and may you success in your life!
take care always. xoxo .

Fyz Syg - 17 April

Net Love - 19 April

Zuzu Si Zhafri - 20 April

Juliana Bestie - 28 April

Icca Sweetie - 28 April

Do i miss one?
i hope so not!!

Susan Boyle

2009-04-17T05:24:00.000-07:00

Who is she?do we ever heard of her?
nahh...never!up until she decided to go
for an audition of Britain's Got Talent.

Susan Boyle (remember that name) became a
Web phenomenon after singing "I Dreamed a Dream"
from Les Miserables. The performance brought the
audience to its feet and left the judges
(including Simon Cowell) either speechless or in tears.Before going on stage, Ms. Boyle admitted
some self-deprecating facts about herself -
she's never been kissed and lives alone with her cat, Pebbles.
For those reasons and more,
audiences were expecting the female William Hung, but they were wrong.Other sources write that as a child,
Ms. Boyle was the target of bullies because of a disability.
But, with her newfound fame, she is getting the last laugh.

47 year old Susan Boyle’s surprise performance
has become a massive hit on YouTube.
“Most Viewed This Week” has her performance
as number one with over 2 million views.

Despite the show being British, Susan has
attracted fans from all around the world.
It appears that Simon Cowell will give Susan a record deal,
even in the unlikely event that she doesn’t win.
However, Susan is more interested in finding herself a man.
Susan hopes the show will find her love, she says she doesn’t “intend to be alone for long.”

There's one thing come's into my mind
after watching the video,
"Don't Judge The Book By Its Cover"
She's brilliant and left me surprised and speechless,
almost brought me to tears after listening to her singing.

http://www.susan-boyle.com/

French Elle - Amazing No Make Up Issue

2009-04-15T04:25:00.000-07:00

The April issue of French Elle features

eight female European celebrities including
Eva Herzigova, Monica Bellucci, Sophie Marceau, and Charlotte Rampling
all without makeup and, perhaps even more revealing,
all entirely without Photoshopping or
retouching of any kind.
The mag's headline "Stars Sans Fards"
translates to “without rouge/makeup,”
but it's a French saying that also
suggests a sense of “openness.”

Eva Herzigova

Sophie Marceau

Monica Belluci

Please Understand, Forgive me

2009-04-14T07:41:00.000-07:00

Im tired and sick of explaining to people's
on how busy Im this trimester.
i have a lot of things going on with me,
too many things to do, too little time.
And people's seems like just don't get it,
or they take it as excuses from me!

Penat la, penat, penat, penat!paham tak?PENAT!!
bnyk sgt kerja, bertimbun2.
i don't even have time for myself!
takkan tak paham?im not giving excuses.
please understand, put yourself in my shoes,
or in my friends shoes who experiencing the same thing!
ask them how their life now a days!
like i said, i don't even have time for my own self, and i know
they're feeling the same way too.

Still don't get it?ok, for example
today i have class from 8am-10am, where the lecturer
throw a quizzes worth of 10 marks to us,
and right after the class, i went to settle the transportation
issue with MMU management regarding our trip
to Asahan this coming 8th-10th April (career development camp).
i go back and forward from MMU admin to lecturer room
just to settle this issue, which up to now still not been settled yet.

Right after that,
i went for tutorial class from 12pm-1pm
and rush myself home after the class finish!
on the way back, mcm biasa lah kan
lapar!singgah beli nasi lemak ayam, ingatkan nak makan dkt rumah
while doing my works! i need to rush for presentation
on 6pm-10pm this evening, preparing the slide and final report,
and guess what, im too busy until i don't even got the chance
to touch the food! up until now!this moment 1030pm,
only then i got to eat!

Friends, don't u understand?
im tired of hearing people saying "Syafiq dah sombong",
"he's changing", "dia dah lupakan kawan", wtf?wth?
i don't ever forget my friends.just that im too busy!
im sorry if u feel it that way, im not there when u need me,
please forgive me and please understand.

i still have 2 research need to be done
(statistics, marketing research)
1 business marketing plan, 1 finance assignment
and 1 retail management project,
all of those need to be done by coming 2 weeks!

And today, again i received 2 sms'es which crushes my heart,
1 of it saying "dah la syafiq, sombong! tak payah kwn
dgn aku dah, delete aku from your friends list"
and the other one saying " Im so sick and unable to do anything,
terribly sick and depressed. thanks for the concern,
and thanks for asking how am i.
im so glad that you are beside me whenever
i needed you=) you take care of yourself well too ok.
Don't worry about me,ill be ok"
in SARCASTIC way.
(because i don't even have the ability-credit-to sms and ask
about her condition, since she fall sick)

Friend's forgive me if i don't even have time to
reply your sms'es or answering your call
(always in silent mode 24/7),or replying your ym/msn msg'es
i hope u do understand this.again, let me say it
im busy!tired!i have so much pressure.
i don't have time to entertain my self,
how can i intertain you?

IM SORRY!FORGIVE ME
PLEASE UNDERSTAND

* right now, at this moment while expressing
my feelings, im doing my group weekly report
on our marketing plan that are suppose to be
submitted today!!still don't get it, don't u?

He's Hot, He's Sexy, He's Undead

2009-04-13T22:06:00.000-07:00

Twilight hottie Robert Pattinson

is on the cover of the April issue of GQ Magazine.
The 22-year-old is featured in the ‘
What’s Hot in 2009′ section of the mag.

Two years ago, Robert Pattinson was
a forgotten extra in a ‘Harry Potter’ movie.
Then he got cast as a blue-balled vampire in ‘Twilight,’
the year’s kazillion-dollar movie franchise,
and every woman in America over 14 wants him.
Too bad he’s not sure he wants them

When asked how he landed his role as
sexy vampire Edward he said:
“I took half a Valium and then went into this thing —
and all this stuff happened.”
It was the first time I’ve ever taken Valium.
A quarter. A quarter of a Valium.
I tried to do it for another audition,
and it just completely backfired — I was passing out.”

In the spread, Robert Pattinson goes
for a “tortured rocker” look, as illustrated by his hip,
all-black tee-shirt and jeans ensemble—which,
incidentally, goes rather well with
the actor’s “Twilight” persona.

By Alex Pappademas;
Photographs by Nathaniel Goldberg

The Stars Who Will Turn 21

2009-04-12T09:51:00.000-07:00

As we venture tentatively into 2009,
let takes a look at the young stars
who will celebrate their milestone
21st birthdays this year.

RIHANNA
Date of birth: 20 February 1988
One of the pop world’s hottest young singers

NIKKI REED
Date of birth: 17 May 1988
Hold the role of Rosalie Hale in hit vampire film, Twilight
and she’s already been signed for the second and third movies.

MICHAEL CERA
Date of birth: 7 June 1988
With Juno to his name, Michael is a young star
steadily working his way up into the big leagues.

RUMER WILLIS
Date of birth: 16 August 1988
Having finally broken into mainstream consciousness
with The House Bunny , the eldest daughter of
Bruce Willis and Demi Moore looks like she’s
pretty set on following her famous parents’ footsteps.

RUPERT GRINT
Date of birth: 24 August 1988
The star probably best known as “the other Harry Potter guy”
will be looking to stamp his own mark
with movies like Cherrybomb and Wild Target ,
both set for release this year.

VANESSA HUDGENS
Date of birth: 14 December 1988
With her birthday falling in December,
Vanessa has plenty of time to plan her 21st birthday party
as well as decide what she should use her
all-important birthday wish for.

CHRIS BROWN
Date of birth: 5 May 1989
Barely 20 years old and already named
Billboard’s top artist of 2008,
the only thing that could make Chris any hotter
is perhaps a confession that he is, in fact, dating Rihanna

DANIEL RADCLIFFE
Date of birth: 23 July 1989
With proven acting chops that extend well beyond
the magic wand of this boy wizard, Daniel may be a superstar
but he’s also just like any other teenager – with a curfew!

JOE JONAS
Date of birth: 15 August 1989
With his split from Taylor Swift well
and truly behind him, Joe is already
eyeing up prospects for when he turns the big 21.

TAYLOR SWIFT
Date of birth: 13 December 1989
Billboard’s really got a thing for these becoming 21 years old.
Taylor has also been given a top accolade –
top country songwriter of 2008.

I envy them soooo much!
they have the look, talent, personality,
money and famous all around!
I wonder how it felt on turning into 21 years old,
its a long way to go for me,
im yet still sweet 17!!=P

Transformers Revenge of the Fallen : Production stills

2009-04-12T09:29:00.000-07:00

Here are some sneaked of a
few captures on the upcoming Transformers sequel.
The scale of the production boggles the mind,
particularly in this economy.
Good to see the art of the
Hollywood blockbuster is alive and well.

Ahhhh i just can't wait!
can't get enough of it,
wanting for more.

Harper's Bazaar - Halle Berry

2009-04-10T09:50:00.000-07:00

It's hard to not be envious of Halle Berry.

She has an expansive career for which she's won an Oscar,
a hot love life with a younger male model,
and an adorable baby girl.
Women want to be her and most
guys we know want to be with her.
But Ms. Berry tells Harper's Bazaar
that she's just a regular woman.
From her snacking-in-front-of-the-TV habit,
to not having the right body for designer clothes
(um, are u kidding me?),
Halle swears she's the girl next door.
Only gorgeous.

Stretch viscose dress, $995, Calvin Klein Collection.

Goddess dressing. Bustier, $2,785, and skirt, $8,695, Blumarine.
Bracelet, $1,295, and ring, $595, Iradj Moini.

In a lather. Dress, $3,795, Calvin Klein Collection.
Earrings, Chanel Fine Jewelry. Ring, De Beers.

White magic. Tunic, $925, fur skirt, $4,750,
and belt, $495; Fendi. Bracelet, $1,000, Janis by Janis Savitt.

Crepe georgette dress with belt, Dior. Bracelets, De Beers.
Platforms, $1,095, Christian Louboutin.

Personally i think that Halle is beautiful
and she is such a lovely women,
plus, i love her body a lot.

Cute Japanese Name

2009-04-09T08:08:00.000-07:00

So i play this Cute Japanese Name generator,
thanks to Bubu, because he told me about it.
well i kinda like the result i get after
putting in my name, so my
Cute Japanese Name is :
syafiq = Syiafuku ! !
i love it !

below are some of my friends and family name
that, the generator translate into
their Cute Japanese Name:

Mobin - Mobinu
Padilah - Paderfu
Irsyaduddin Eizzat Khairani - Irushiadodeden eizuzatsu kuhairani
Aida Syuhada - Aide shiuhade
Danial - Deniaru
Nadatul Sofia - Nadetsuru sofua
Ilya Zafirah - Iria zafurafu
Nadia - Nadea
Megat Mizan - Megatsu Mizanu
Israq - Isuraku
Shearil Nadia - Shiariru Nadea
Elyias - Eriiasu
Azwin - Azuuinu
Subbashini - Sububashini
Isham - Ishumu
Yusry - Yusuri
Sharain - Shirain
Juliana Shahida - Juriana Shihide
Azraniah - Azuraniafu
Kheirul - Kuheiruru
Nurul Izzati - Nururu Izuzachi
Wan Syahirah - Wan Shiahirafu
Rikhman - Rikufumanu
Shazwina - Shizuuina
Kaer Hazwan - Kaeru Hazuwanu
Reisha Karina - Reishi Karina
Shaker - Shikeru
Fyzliana Hilda - Fuzuriana hirude
Shahidan - Shihidenu
Shahrul Akmal - Shifururu akumaru

to the rest, do it yourself ! ! LOL
here's the link : Cute Japanese name generator

L.M.A.O

2009-04-09T06:05:00.000-07:00

I've been bored and find myself lame

just sitting in front of my laptop
doing my assignment and research.
so then i log on into my facebook account,
and next thing i know im doing a lot of
those silly and ridicolous quizzes in there,
if you happen to have facebook account,
you know what im talking about.
well it was fun you know.

so the quizzes results so far :

Which WWE wrestler are you?

Results: John Cena - everyone loves you..your a born champ!
u make girls go crazy for you!and you are
the mother****kin world heavyweight champion!

My reaction : well i love to be a champion!
on top of it, everyone love me =P

Who is your celebrity twin?

Results: Ashley Tisdale, You are friendly, energetic,
and pretty. you usually keep to yourself and
you dont make a big deal of yourself.

My reaction: i kind of like it and i didn't know that
i have a blonde twin sister?lol.

Which superheros are you?

Results: Batman, Bruce Wayne As a child, Bruce's parents were killed.
Since then, he has fought for justice.
He wears a bat-like costume and has many cool gadgets.

My reaction: hmm im ok with that.
who doesn't like batman other than those villain?
he kinda hot superhero!

Which Harry Porter's character are you?

Results: Albus Dumbledore - you are wise, kind
and still ready to fight for what you think is right,
so just dont keep too many secrets so when you're gone,
people wont think that you were shady.

My reaction: Its kinda true, the results speaks for me.

Which Heroe's character are you?

Results: Peter Petrelli, You are a nice person and very sensible.

My reaction: i shout out loud in me, yaaaay!haha.
he's my fav character in the series.ever!

Which Twilight's character are you?

Results: Edward Cullen, You enjoy helping out someone you love.
You have good friends but try to be yourself.

My reaction: are you kidding me?of course!
after all, we look a like tho!lol.

Who is your celebrity girlfriend?

Result: Lindsay Lohan, you just fall in love with her
My reaction: seriously? ok now back off, she's mine.

Who is your celebrity boyfriend?

Result: You have a huge young spirit, you are cute ,
tender and loving this hottie desrves you.

My reaction: yeah right! if I'm a girl,
ill marry you right away!

What do girl's think about you?

Result: You are everything a girl needs.
You are sweet, kind and caring.
Keep it up and you will be very happy.

My reaction: omg!am i that valuable?

ok, the last one is very much ridiculous!

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When will you die?

Result: 19 Octobore 2008, you just have a moment.
My reaction: wtf? this is too much now.
i thank god im still alive!lol.

after all, its a good combination isn't it?
im proud of myself!lmao.
that's it.i need to stop now!

Cam Whore!!

2009-04-08T06:06:00.000-07:00

Today is pretty lame,
i had an exam which went just OK!!
and when i reached home after that,i went straight
and lay on my bed doing nothing,
it's raining heavily outside and im about to sleep
when Israq my dear friend buzz me on YM.
and he invited me to view his webcam.

and here u are,
with that "sepet" eyes and apek looking,
im laughing by looking at the diva from Sabah! lol.
and i caught him doing some sexy moves.hahaha.
Yusry was there too, but couldn't catch him in action.
and i think, he had no idea that i capture his webcam picture!

see u soon buddy!

Andy Lau and Carol Chu

2009-04-08T05:29:00.000-07:00

Well im not so sure which which one is right and wrong,
previously news said they Cantapop Artist,
Andy Lau gonna get married with her girl,
Carol Chu, from Ipoh, Perak.
They've known each other for 24 years already.

But recently, gossip around said it was canceled!
what happen?well based on Chinese Media,
Andy want's to get married once he find out that,
his girl is pregnant and he's eager to become a legal dad.
but then, Carol actually was not pregnant!
and like usual, Andy denied everything.
well if the wedding is going to happen,
its gonna be here, in Ipoh!!

Some people said, it was canceled because
of the pressure that they had from the media.
so yeah, idk. for me personally,
its been 24 year's.go and get married then!!

Colors of my life

2009-04-08T05:05:00.000-07:00

This semester had been soooo rough on me,
loads of silly stuff, drama's, assignments and so on.
On top of that, im still looking for a company,
a place for me to do my practical training.
I don't have that much time for myself too.

Its been 3 weeks since i last go back
to my hometown in KL. i miss my family!
so badly, so wanna be with them so bad.
there's couple of times where my tears drop,
out of sudden, without no reason.
maybe because i feel so alone and the hardship kills me.

I miss my mum cook, my dad lectures, lol
my brothers and sister. they means the world to me.
i will always love them forever.
but who doesn't right?

Even here in Melaka,
i rarely go out with my dear good friends,
we don't really meet frequently, not like before.
i miss the way we are before and the things that we used to do.

Plus, I truly miss my friends back in KL/Shah Alam/Cyberjaya,
the craziness,spontaneous,happiness,argument that
we had back then. Can't wait to meet them back again.
if god will, Im going back this Sunday,
to meet few of them and we have a plan to go to ABPBH together!
yyyyaaaayyyy.i can't wait!

Beloved Mak and Abah

One of my fav pict of the year!! truly enjoy this moment!!

With the girls!!

Babygula's =P

they're truly colorful isn't it?